rainy

My heart in a knot
2014-02-05 22:09:49 (UTC)

found mail.

I found my mail that I have been waiting all last month for. It was in my sisters room! that really frustrates me because I already wrote the people who sent it and told them and now they are sending it again.


Anyway, my sister has been frustrating me with how she handles the mail, for instance we share the electricity bill so I don't know why every time it comes she hides it back in her room, by the way for last month (January) our electricity bill is at $432, all because my sister won't make any compromises when it comes to electricity. Not to mention she has two TV's, Two gaming systems, a laptop, a mini fridge, and all sorts of other things constantly plugged in all day, on top of that she leaves her TV on at night because she claims she can't sleep without it. So she uses up more then half of the electricity but I have to be the one to pay it. Plus I'm not working a lot right now so this really isn't helping in anyway.

Lately I don't know why but I've been having a serious lack of motivation to put in new job applications or applications for internships and other opportunities. Despite the fact that I'm home nearly all day everyday plus I have the means and resources... so why don't I do it? why am I so unmotivated? I really don't know but I'm going to have to find the motivation in myself somehow.


My thoughts and feelings have slowly started to come down after my encounter with witness girl, it has impacted my academic work though because I was having a difficult time concentrating on the material, in fact today I only got one section done out of 4, so now I'm going to have to make up for it tomorrow. Hopefully I can wake up early tomorrow and get it done. My statistics book has still yet to arrive, this is really frustrating because I need the book. If it's not here by the 8th then I can file a complaint.

After Friday it will be only a week until V-day, I guess this year although I'm upset I haven't reached my goal of being in a relationship with someone (or at least dating) I don't feel that bad because I've seen many other people online express how they feel about the day because they also are single..

night




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