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My heart in a knot
2014-01-30 18:56:39 (UTC)

Inside..

I haven't left my house in 3 days, that's not a record though, but it is frustrating.

It was mostly due to the snow we got, so they canceled classes. I'm really starting to hate solitary days at home, well actually one of the days my sisters friend came over and they were in her room playing video games.. I didn't join them or anything and when I think about it like that it makes me feel like even more of an "introvert", but I really don't think I am one. I think more then anything I'm painfully afraid of everything.


Luckily I get to leave tomorrow, I have class and then work. I also basically out of groceries which means I'm going to have to find time to run by the grocery store and pick up some bread and then go back to the grocery store on Sunday to start my February shopping.

I've been hating being food insecure for a while now but I'm wondering where are all the other sufferers they keep talking about in these statistics?


I'm starting to wonder what I might be able to do to get out of this situation. I have a craving for a pizza right now but my budget is tight. One day I'd just love to be able to open up my refrigerator or cupboards and pull out what ever kind of meal I'd like to make, or at least be able to run to the grocery store and have it. Of course I'd probably end up eating a bunch of things I don't need like the junk food I bought the other day because I was having a sad episode.


Tomorrow is the last day of January and I haven't had a January person to get to know, I feel a bit disappointed because it was such an easy goal to complete, I think more than anything it has shown me that I spend way too much time in my house, even on days that I go out it's only for a few hours until I'm back home again. I really have to do something to break this cycle. I'm still going to go for my goal though, so hopefully I'll be able to find a February person.


I had to brush my teeth with fluoride tonight because my teeth were hurting, I think I have a few cavities. I haven't visited a dentist since I was in middle school so I really don't know the state of my oral health, but I do brush everyday, but I don't know if the problem has been that over the last few years I've been brushing with fluoride free toothpaste, mostly because fluoride seems to cause cognitive problems for me.




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