rainy

My heart in a knot
2013-11-11 22:21:44 (UTC)

Family/Friends

So I was just looking for this post I was going to post her about the traits of winners and losers, but I couldn't find it... it's weird it's like it just disappeared. I should of bookmarked it when I first saw it but the reason I didn't was because I didn't agree completely with it and found it even a bit offensive..


Well if I find it I will post it here and write what I think about it.


Anyway, I came to write because I'm a bit blue. I guess facebook is to blame again. They say social media makes people depressed but I'm not really sure why.


My issue is that I see everyones page and how they have so many people who are in their lives and who care about what they have to say. Not only that but I notice that many of the people I work with have social media bonds and friendships with each other but not me.


Remember that girl from my Physical education class? well on her page she has recently been writing about being "sad", not only that but when she post something like that her friends jump to her rescue and comment how they are there for her and if she needs to talk they will listen. It kind of makes me made that she can even talk about being sad.. I mean everyone has the right to feel sad, however, my life is a hundred times worst. I don't have half of what she has and she's younger then me. She has two parents who love her and didn't abandon her, she has sisters with whom she has a loving relationship, not to mention tons of friends and family who love and support her.

I have none of that. How can she be sad with all of that? she's so rich in my eyes.


Anyway, everything I just said slightly reflects on the winners and losers post I read and was going to write about. I'm aware that I have to stop focusing on my problems and try to be happy but sometimes it feels like there is no escape.


The girl at work I mentioned has a truly charismatic personality, it just seems in her nature to smile and make friends with new people. She seems to have no reservations. I haven't really had the chance to watch her closer and she could be gone any day now, but time waits for no one.

Anyway, I feel bad I haven't posted my "important information" post yet, it's not that I'm trying to delay it, but I don't want to have detractions when I post it, and right now I'm still in academic mode. In fact my outline for my pervasive speech is already complete, next thing I have to do is record my speech. After that assignment we start the last two chapters which are about team work and working in groups. I will also have a few more home work assignments to do and one more outline for our team work group.


My psychology class is slowly coming to an end as well, we have about 4 weeks left. I've already composed a list of things I'm going to do once these classes are over, I'm so excited for these classes to be over soon, it feels as if this entire semester has dragged slowly along.

Also my car is giving me troubles again (it never ends) my headlights stopped working which is a huge problem since I need them for night driving. I'm hoping it's just the bulb which I'm going to replace, however I'm worried it could be an electrical problem since my car has been playing games with me lately, for instance for about 2 months my windshield wipers stopped working, but now they are working, however they still are not working properly, but at least they turn on without me having to insert and take out the fuse when I need to. The only good thing that is coming from all of this is that I'm learning mechanics of the car, I'm not afraid to pop the hood and get my hands dirty. But like I was saying, hopefully it's just an blown out bulb... of course the bulb didn't look blown when I pulled it out but I will known soon.


I don't do much driving at night anyway, but I still need for them to work in case I do.

I guess that's about all that has been going on with me lately... I spoke to sean tonight and the conversation wasn't all that bad and honestly it was nice to have someone to talk to. Speaking of talking I haven't spoken to my sister in like 4 days now... the other night we had an argument about a glass pan... anyway I don't wish to detail it to save myself from sounding even more immature then I feel I already come across as.

Anyway.. I'm about to head to sleep... I can't emphasize how excited I am that the semester is almost over, I really need a break.




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