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My heart in a knot
2013-04-20 21:19:21 (UTC)

spring clean

So today I finally was able to get my spring cleaning done, I had to do it entirely by myself since my sister said she has to work at the last minute... anyway I got the house fairly clean although I didn't deep scrub as much as I wanted to since I am still not feeling too well.


I made another assumption of what could be the problem this time and figured it might not only be a virus I picked up but it could also be the fact that I've been washing my hair more and letting it dry on it's on which I think has cased me to have a head cold. It's fairly warm enough out for me to let my hair dry on it's on however the last few days it's only been in the 60s or so.


I had a green smoothie with spinach, almond milk, strawberries and a banana this morning for breakfast, I also had a whole banana which would make a total of 4 bananas in one day since I decided to have one with my salad for dinner then an extra one in case I was hungry in the night. I'm desperately trying to feel better quickly, today I didn't have any meats or anything heavy plus I did a short workout however it wasn't very intense.


Right now I really want some lemon, I think it would help whatever bug this is I have.


Even though I cleaned all day and got my class work done I was glad to have a Saturday off from work, it's been way too long since I've enjoyed a Saturday off... I can't wait until I find a job that requires no weekends so I can have the weekends to myself.


I hope the tea I drunk tonight will help me feel better by morning, I mixed 3 bags of green tea with 3 bags of detox tea, it was about 2 cups worth. Continuing to worry about my health really isn't helping anything, even if I have something wrong with me beyond my control all I can do is continue living my life and make the best out of things...

My life has been so boring and lacking substance lately... I want to bring a little excitement in my life and I guess I could say that might start starting next week when I move into a different area at my job, I'm honestly expecting the worst since I know nothing about what I'm about to do or what I'm getting myself into...right now all I know is that I was craving a change and now I have it even though it's not really what I wanted, but some change is better then no change, and even if I fail and loose my job.. I might experience struggle, but I recently read a wonderful quote that explains how struggle is a sign of growth and I do want to grow instead of being stuck in this same position in my safety zone, of course like always I wonder if I'm making the right decision.


The dating world has so far continued to be uneventful to me, I still haven't put myself out there though and I understand my apprehension however at the same time I wish I were more bold and daring... also what I'm looking for doesn't seem to be out there, or maybe I'm looking in the wrong places.


I have tomorrow off from work and I'm ecstatic.. Hopefully I can get some rest and feel better. On Monday I'm going to go to class and turn in my assignment, then about 2 hours later I have an appointment with my advisor about next semester, it's going to be the same lady as the first time, the one who I was really disappointed in because I had so many expectations... anyway I'm expecting the same experience but maybe worst, who knows... I hope it can go by quickly.. I plan on trying to insure it goes by quickly by picking out the classes I want early and having everything set into place before I get there and if I run into any problems I hope to have a back up strategy so I can get out as quick as possible yet still have everything settled..

So once that's done I'll have a rough estimate on the cost of my academic expenses for the rest of the year, then I can total other things up and see where I'm headed financially. I really hope things work out in my favor, if not then I at least know that if I struggle I will grow from it, and hopefully not be broken or disheartened..

well I think what ever sickness I have is starting to make it's way to my stomach, so I'm going to stop here.




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