rainy

My heart in a knot
2013-03-04 23:10:56 (UTC)

Progress...

So after writing my last few entries and taking advice I really have started to realize I have to be more proactive about making some serious positive changes in my life.


Today while I was washing my hair I was wondering how on earth am I going to make it in this world? sometimes there seems like there is no escape... and no optimism to be found.


I then thought about a staggering statistic a customer was talking about at work, he was saying that America has more people in their prison system then the entire population of a Latin American country.


I thought, what if, what if I loose my job and can't find another one? what if I run out of all my savings and have no place to go? ... Then I thought.. maybe some of the people in the prision system are there just to have a roof over their head and something to eat.. I hear they also get medical care, that's more then I'm getting now with my low wage job.

It's so strange here in America.. I see people buying things I would dream of buying because to me it would be a complete waste of money, but to them it's just extra money to burn. That's what is so messed up about our society, the divide between the rich and poor is huge, it's funny but there are some cars people buy that cost more then what it cost me to live in 2 to 3 years.

I did a quick calculation and at a average rate at normal expenses it would cost me about 16,200.00 to live each year... that is just a rough estimate based on the cost of an apartment in a safe area plus all my living expenses.. it might be a lot lower then that.. anyway I'd have to be making at least $1,350 a month for that to happen which is almost practical at $8.00 a hour full time. Of course how do you raise a family working 40 hours a week...

Anyway... this wasn't really the topic I wanted to be writing about tonight, but you know with me money is usually apart of my issues and the reason I come write at all... speaking of which so far this month I've already spent 30 dollars on expenses.. and trust me I'm on a tight budget..

Anyway... I'm getting sleepy, I hope to be back to write about something a bit more meaningful tomorrow..




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