rainy

My heart in a knot
2013-01-22 10:09:03 (UTC)

connecting..

Lately I've been feeling like "blah", yesterday I was home all day and didn't do anything today might be the same way.

It has had me thinking about "connections" that people make with each other, like the connection I made with Tasneem, it might of been a bad connection but it was there and it was real.. we take risk when we let people into our lives; they may end up hurting us, or we might end up hurting them, but we learn and grow from situations like that.


I also think about myself and why I don't really have anyone in my life besides my family, and I've been thinking I don't push hard enough to really get to know people, if someone seems uninterested in me then I just let it go instead of going for what I want.

My mind needs some stimulation, I didn't have class yesterday because it was a holiday, nor did I choose to do any of my online work. I do plan on getting stuff done today and reviewing.

Sean stopped by my house this morning, I wish I would of never told him where I moved to, I hope he doesn't do it again. He obviously has noticed that I've cut off all ties with him by electronic means. I didn't answer the door when he came, mostly because I didn't know who it was until he walked away from the door, I was so annoyed to see him, hopefully he won't make a pattern of this, if he does I'll call the police on him.

Oh yea, I've been watching netflix lately I don't have a subscription my sister has one she is sharing.. I saw a few good documentaries and films but I really feel I need more stimulation for my brain then sitting around watching films all day. I really have been missing getting to know Tasneem, I feel like she's so distant right now and I don't think I could ever get her back.

Well... today is a new day, and I want to think positively, I'm going to go and get my science work done and hopefully get some cleaning done today, then I'll take a nice shower and get ready for tomorrows classes, tomorrow we should really start to get into the material but I don't think we will really start to have any major assignments until next week, at least that's what I'm hoping lol.


well.. I'm going to go see what this note says that sean left at my door... the second time he came up he had a piece of paper in his hand so I'm assuming he left a note.. I'll come and write what it says the next time I'm here if I can remember.





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