LustingforNightmares

tumbleweed
2012-12-02 18:25:05 (UTC)

Confidence


Sun. December 2, 2012 6:25 PM

"The Greatest" by Cat Power


WARNING: Today was a good day, so you might not want to read this because I tend to write a lot.

Today was amazing.

I woke up at around eleven, meaning to take a shower, get dressed, and do my homework before heading to Lily's for her party at noon, but instead, as I was walking out of the bathroom, the doorbell rang. My mom opened the door and yelled up to me that it was Lily.

Ugh, she's SO pretty, the lucky bum.

So, I was still in my pajamas, but I quickly pulled on a pair of jeans and took my hair out of it's ponytail.

I told her I just woke up and I'd be there in fifteen. She said okay, and then left. I went to my window which faces the street and yelled, "See you in fifteen!"

Lily was with Marina and a guy whose name I didn't know, but he was hot. They all waved. I got dressed pretty fast in some ripped jeans, my Livermore High t-shirt from when I lived in California, combat boots (that made me seem taller), and a purple Washington D.C. sweatshirt. I also slipped on my slouchy grey knit beanie, haha.

So, I walked unenthusiastically to Lily's house. When I got there, they were all in her awesome game room. Turns out the guy is Marina's boyfriend. He's so hot! He's nearly sixteen. I only didn't like his gauges, they were kind of big, but he had the coolest hat. I'm going to call him Avery.

Lily didn't want a party at all, but since Marina tried so hard, so did Lily and I respect that. Maybe a half hour after I arrived, so did Makayla and Laney.

We drank soda and I decided I'm not so awkward around guys, not as much as I thought. He was pretty cool, he likes Pierce the Veil so that's good.

It was so cute watching Avery and Marina. They were hugging and holding hands, and omigod I'm so jealous but it was way too cute to be envious! It was amazing.

Apparently they just started dating, too. Aww.

Then Lily's "asian" named Jay came over. He's so cute! But don't let that fool you, he's strong, haha. But no, he's fucking amazing. Only a little shorter than me.

We played some black ops, haha. xD

All of us took a walk after Avery showed us how many colored pencils he could fit in his ear lobe. Ew! He stretched it a bit, and his gauge didn't fit as nicely as it did before. Ahgghhgh! He wants to get so many piercing. I wish he didn't, he's so attractive without them.

Avery had to leave during our walk so he did. Marina then came up and put her arm around my waist.

One thing about my friends, we touch each other a lot. Arms around waist, hugging, cuddling, hand-holding, biting, licking. Lol, but it's okay. It's more than okay, I really like it.

Most of the walk I had my arm around Lauren's waist (almost everyone there is taller than me) and she had her arm around my shoulder. We picked up Lily's friend Shawn and walked to Cumberland farms.

I got a lollipop, but I guess I also "stole" those little milk things you put in coffee. Makayla shoved them in my pocket! Ugh, she's pretty too.

We then went to the park where me and Lily smoked once, and as we walked there, I hung back with Marina and we talked a lot about how we wanted to be friends again and.... well, damn. I change my mind, again. I like her. I want to be her friend.

Unfortunately she doesn't smoke or drink so she can't hook me up, but she could always get my cigarettes. I'm going to have a bad day sometime soon... so I'm glad I have this opportunity. I let Jay where my hat and put his arm around my shoulder.

We went back to Lily's (I talked with Marina the whole way) and Marina noticed a cigg pack that Lily's parents must've left on the porch. After we all went inside, I saw Lily sneak the pack into her back pocket.

We went up to the game room, turned on the black light so it was completely dark except for our glowing white clothes, and music was playing.
We played Never Have I Ever... and Truth Or Dare and Dare or Double Dare.

Me and Makayla ended up being the only two playing the last one. It was so fun. We were licking and biting everyone, haha.

I still don't know it I'm bi because I've never crushed on another girl, but I sure liked it.

Now I am here.

By the way, razors are easy to cut yourself with and the pain lasts longer. It feels kind of sensitive and bruisy. If you just use a single blade, then the pain is really sharp but it doesn't last. I use both. My stomach is really cut up from last night.




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