rainy

My heart in a knot
2012-10-20 19:45:23 (UTC)

Things...

So things seem to be slowly moving for me in different areas of my life, however I'm starting to be a bit hesitant and fearful of any new sudden changes.


Mostly right now I'm talking about my job, I've been looking for a new job for the last few months and I imagine perspective employers might have called my current job to verify I worked there and my store manager has known that. One day when I was leaving I was looking at a chart with other opportunities in the company and she asked me was I interested in moving and I said yes..


The thing is that I am interested in moving to another department however I have found being a cashier as my comfort zone. It's a beyond easy job and I've found that as long as you show up and do the job right then you can almost never get fired. Unlike in other departments where you have more responsibility..

It's not that I'm running away from responsibility, I do want a more challenging job but right now all I care about is maintaining my job and keeping what little income I do have coming in to stay coming in. It's just that we are in a tough economic strain and many people are out of work, and right now I have bills to pay and I'm trying to finish my next 2 years of university so a job is very important for me right now, and being a cashier is a easy job that doesn't require much time or added stress..


So anyway, the first time she asked I never got around to putting in a application for the other departments, but yesterday she asked me again if I was still interested and I said yes, so today at work I got on the computer and put in a application for different positions, so I will see what happens.. I'm worried things are going to start turning out worst for me and I won't even be able to maintain the little job security I do have now. My current position and how I do my job almost ensure me job security, plus I have the option of making my schedule very flexible which is important since I'm in school.

Of course I'm also excited at the thought of doing something new and different, I really need a challenge, anyway even if things don't work out maybe it will be the push I need to find a opportunity for a better job.


As far as my university preparations go I still haven't sent in my health records, but I will do that on Monday, I want to get them sent in as soon as possible so that there won't be any mishaps when I start classes. I'm nervous to be starting.

Well, I'm really tired and I guess not up for much right now, the last 2 nights I haven't been able to sleep very well, my mind is usually up thinking about things and I've been falling asleep around 2 or 3am and sometimes waking up around 5am and trying to fall back to sleep before I have to get up at 6 or 7am... but tomorrow I'm getting up at 8am so that's a little better. I think the issue has been that I've been eating later in the evening, and it's been heavy stuff, I've been eating a lot of meat lately, but I'm planning on cutting back during this next week. We have 12 more days this month and I can't wait until it's over, I really am hoping I make my grocery budget this month but it's not looking good, I'm nearly out of food and will need to get more soon and I doubt I can get enough to last me the rest of the month and still be under $20.


well night




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