2012-09-23 04:32:40 ( UTC )
my crappy wonderful boyfriend.
Ya know, I'm really simple. I never ask you to remember anniversaries or Valentines day. I
don't even know when either of those are. I don't even know your birthday. I don't care if
I see you once every month. I don't care if you don't text me everyday. I don't care if
you hug other girls. and most of all, I don't care if we're official on Facebook! I don't
care. As long as you're mine and I'm yours. As long as the only people we're having sex
with is each other for the time we're together I'm cool. but no. that's too much for you
to handle. in fact it's so hard you urge to sleep with my BEST FRIEND. really though? I
feel like I have nobody. I've been in love with you for years. I lost my virginity to you.
I've lost friends just because we were together. and now I no longer even have my best
friend. I wish i could say I had family but I can't and you knew this. you helped me with
everything in my life. hell, you helped me when one of my best friends died. you've stuck
through everything and mean the world to me. but even though you've done so many good
things for me I don't know if I could ever forgive you..
I wish I could say all of this to your face but I can't even face you. I wish I could
forget every memory we've ever had. I wish I could forget your face, smile, taste, all of
it. All the times that we've made every single one of our ex's jealous. all the times you
snuck in my house just to cuddle with me til' I fell asleep. I miss you taking me to your
room and singing songs to me with your cute little acoustic guitar.I wish I could forget
running from the cops holding hands. I miss roaming the woods in the middle of the night.
I miss it all. screw it, I wouldn't take back a single second I've had with you. and that
disappoints me. I wish I wouldn't love you the way I do. but I do. young love sucks.
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