2012-09-22 22:57:42 ( UTC -6 )
Monday we start Nursing II, the clinical portion of the program.
I'm nervous. We took a tour of the facility Friday night. It wasn't what I expected.
Did I mention I'm nervous???
Can't really tell you why but it doesn't help that I have fluid in my right ear, so I
can't hear much out of it, I'm constantly foggy-headed now, I'm gaining weight, and I'm
having headaches every day.
I haevn't taken any DCI for days now. I ran out.
I won't be able to get any until MAYBE next month.
It sucks so bad.
For the past 4 hours or so, I've been laying down watching Season 2 of Grey's Anatomy.
I've always seen the previews while watching TV and wanted to watch it, but I never got
around to it, and next thing you know, the show was well into it's 3rd and 4th seasons so
I just didn't worry about.
Thanks to the internet, I found every single episode. I started from the beginning, and
from episode 2 of season 1, I fell in love!!!!!!!
Since I'm so behind and the show is in it's 8th or 9th season right now, it's hard to
google it without finding major spoilers.
I accidentally watched the first 5 minutes of a new episode, and saw Meredith and
Christina in an airport I think and McDreamy was there with a black child, he handed her
to Meredith and mentioned something about being married? I'm confused.
Another spoiler I came across was that a lot of people on the show are going to die?
Hopefully I don't run into any other spoilers.
I haven't read 50 Shades Freed yet. I don't think I will anytime soon.
I really want to read Anne Rice's Sleeping Beauty trilogy, I heard it's a lot better than
50 Shades. Just from reading the summary, I think it will be too, for someone like me at
least. Not for people who loved the romantic part of 50 Shades.
I applied to a local hospital and got a call back!
Nothing definitive, but surely a good sign. I have to call back when I'm certified. I hope
I get the position, I don't care what I have to do, I need to get my foot in the door and
make up for not working for the past 4 years.
I look back and I really don't have any good reason as to why I didn't keep a job during
those years. My sleep apnea, caused by none other than fucking PCOS, kept me from being
able to juggle too much in a day, but I wish that I had pushed myself. Wouldn't have been
good on my health but oh well. Right after I had the surgery to fix my sleep apnea, I got
pregnant, and stayed that way for 9 months.
I'm still young and learning. I'm ready now. Better late than never. I'm going to work my
ass off. Sure it'll take me a million times longer to finish watching catch up on all
those seasons of Grey's Anatomy, but oh well.
I often feel bad for people who work themselves to the bone, taking extra shifts, missing
holidays, etc., only to die young. It just doesn't make sense to me. Especially if they're
doing a job just for the money and not because it's what they want to do, you know?
The line of work I'm going into is dealing with people, helping people, being there for
people. Because of that, it's likely a thankless job as well, but hopefully that's where
my life will be different.
I wouldn't feel like my time at work has been wasted because of the nature of work I would
be doing. Let's hope I still feel that way once I'm knee deep in nursing.
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