2012-06-27 20:25:44 ( UTC )
page 4-The sex...
Ok, So let me tell you something about the sex with these two guys....
My 1st guy 'D' when I was 17 and till I was about 21....
I could probably say the sex never really changed from 17 to 21! We mostly always had sex
in his car (because there was no where else). I lived at home with my parents and he lived
with his wife!
I didn't enjoy sex in cars and probably never will cause it would make me feel like the
person I was back then.
I always had sex for the man-Never for myself. I saw it as my job. Something I had to do
in order to keep them. At the same time, if I didn't get to have sex with them, I felt
down that it hadn't happened. I always need to feel wanted.
Sex with 'D' was never passionate-it was just 'nice' sex. I can't remember him 'going
down' on me. He must of done??? but I really can't remember. I think it always lasted
about half hour. I think he tried to please me, but I was too young to really feel those
feelings yet (plus I knew he didn't really love me, so I could never let myself go with
him. To make love to someone I really fancied and to feel sexy- It just wasn't there yet
and to be honest, I could never really see myself letting go (the type of thing you do
when you are by yourself ;-) ).
We did the typical thing of booking a hotel now and again. I always stayed overnight, but
he went home at 11pm (the time the pub shuts-Which is where he was mean't to be as far as
his wife was concerned).
I think he made the most of those nights cause he had paid for them!!
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