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My heart in a knot
2012-06-24 19:18:05 (UTC)

Now what..

Hello Diary, I wanted to come write before I got started editing these photos I took last night and sorting through the bad ones, I don't think I wrote about this last night but I had a difficult time finding the best lighting last night at the hotel we were in. I ended up using full flash so the photos wouldn't turn out so blurry.. then today I realized I think what I needed was a flash diffuser.

I have been looking at a few on amazon but I'm not sure yet which one I want to get. The thing about taking photos in these kind of settings is that you have to get the lighting just perfect and you have to have a decent shutter speed as well. So a lot of my photos turned out either too dark or too blurry. It was very frustrating because I want to take the type of photos I have in my mind but it's very hard.. I think I really do need to take some classes.

Photographing people has always been difficult for me because people are always moving.

Anyway.. so I was feeling a bit depressed today and I know most of it has to do with lack of sleep and the foods I ate last night. I've been trying to not be so obsessed with every little thing I eat and it's ingredients. I don't want to feel the need to be constantly eating health foods, although I do want health foods to be the majority of my diet but I think it's ok to have a few "bad" foods every once in a while.

I had more conversations with the people I worked with today, so that was an improvement. I still talk to men easier then I do women for some reason. But today was good, even though I was really tired!! speaking of which I didn't make it to the store meeting, and I feel guilty because I have missed a lot!! I just couldn't get my body out of the bed or my eyes to open. I finally went to sleep at about 3am, and I had to get up at 4am to be at my job by 6am, on top of that I was scheduled to work at 10am, which means I would of had to sit around for 2 hours at work or drive home which would of been a hour worth of driving back and forth so it would of been pointless because once I got home and tried to get some sleep I would of had to return to work.

I just cannot function with no sleep, that's why I think I was feeling a bit of depression.. that and I really am starting to wish I had more people to talk to.. I think I'm going to get my cell phone plan started again.. oh yea I talked to Megan today : ) I don't really have a crush on her anymore but she is really cool and nice so I hope we can be friends of course I never run into her. We talked about our job and wanting to find something better : ) so she and I are in the same boat! But the best thing about our conversation is that I initiated it! and I wasn't scared or nervous, ... ok maybe I was a little nervous, but it was a different kind of nervous.


I just feel so proud of myself, lol, and I also feel a little lame because of that as well. But it's a step in a positive direction and I hope it continues..


My head hurts a little, but hopefully after some sleep I will feel better. I have P.E. in the morning and I'm still trying to figure out how I'm going to work things out with the situation I got myself into. I'm glad math class is going ok, I didn't finish my project but I will work on it tomorrow and all the rest of this week until it's due on Thursday. We have 3 test left, which will go by quickly..

In P.E. class I only have about 8 class sessions left : ( I hate the class but I like "K" so that's the only thing that will suck about that class being over. Math class is going to go by but it will seem more busy since we still have a lot to cover.


I feel like watching a movie or something, but a animation movie..something cute and funny.

Well I think I'm going to go get started with editing these photos, I am setting some to my aunt who lives in a different city and to my moms friend.




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