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My heart in a knot
2012-02-02 22:54:06 (UTC)

Bad day.

Today was a bad day : (


I'm starting to really wish I could start having more good days then bad days but I don't know if that's going to happen for me.


Brittany and I aren't talking anymore, she apparently got upset over something I said, but really I don't think that's the reason. I really wish people could be completely straight forward with their feelings, I study psychology and I understand that other people's opinions, feelings and thoughts are going to be different from mines and I accept criticism because it helps me grow.

Anyway.. so I was upset about that, then I went into math class thinking I was prepared for the test we had today, boy was I wrong, thing's just kept tripping me up. I knew what to do except for the last bit, I could never figure out when I was supposed to multiply by -1 to get my final answer.

Anyway, what's done is done. I had hoped I would get an A but the way I performed it looks like I might get an C if I'm lucky...


I've been really bothered and upset lately.. and I think it has a lot to do with valentines day coming up, you just can't avoid it here, it's absolutely everywhere including on the street corners with people trying to sale teddy bears, flowers, balloons and candy. I don't want it to sound like I'm complaining about being single this one time, I know many other people are single as well, but I'm frustrated that I haven't even had a date or anything.. it's such a difficult time for me.

I was on campus today feeling low, it just made for a bad day.

I have my first biology test next Tuesday, and I want to be prepared for it. I'm going to study the power points and create flash cards to help me memorize things, I should be ready if she sticks to the material on the power points like she said she would. I've read the book but not much sticks into my long term memory.

I just want to get out of this state of mind I'm in.. I was on facebook today and one of the pages I'm subscribed to said to make a joke out of a bad thing. Like if something bad or tragic happens try to joke about it because it's effective. When I first read it my defensive side came out and I was like "NO, not everything can be made the subject of a joke" and "Somethings are not to be joked about" and I'm a firm believer in that. But some "less" serious things can be made a joke about, it might help me lighten up a bit, I think I tend to be a bit too stern and serious. I'm the kind of person who won't sit down and relax if I feel uncomfortable. It takes a lot of reassuring for me to get comfortable.

ugh..... I just feel awful , tomorrow I have the day off from work, I'm planning on getting my study material for biology together and filling out a job application and getting it sent in, I also think I might go out for a bit, actually I need to because I'm low on groceries.

I just hate sitting at home all day because usually my parents are here and I don't feel comfortable around them so I usually stay in my room.

Well I'm going to go get started on bio, lately I've gotten tired of looking at a computer screen for so long.




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