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My Life Thus Far
2011-07-10 04:57:59 (UTC)

The Journey is the Prize

Instead of finding my lost balance, I've somehow set myself even more off balance. Not so much that I can't right myself, just enough to make me wonder the the hell is going on. I've got tomorrow off. Maybe I just need a Y-free day (from both. The one I love and the one that stresses me out).

I can't think of anything from the past couple of days that's worth catching up on (it's been pretty run-of-the-mill). Today was also a fairly normal day. I did my usual shift at the Bremerton Y. It went by really fast, too. I had lots of members to talk to and things to do. All I could think about was how vindicated I felt in putting in my two week's notice at Haselwood. I didn't realize I was as unhappy there as I am. Not unhappy like bad things happen there, but just unfulfilled. I see myself making more upward strides at Bremerton, but we've had this conversation before. I don't feel like going into it again right now. I made the right choice, we'll leave it at that.

I need to find a CPR class ASAP. My certification has lapsed and I need to have it current to take my personal training exam in a couple weeks. Rhonda said there was going to be a class coming up soon, but I haven't heard anymore about it and it's getting too close for comfort. I'm tired of putting it off. I think Monday I'll try to find a class on my own. I don't even care about having to pay for it myself, I just want to get it done and over with. I don't want anything coming between me and my goals.

I got so much sleep last night. I fell asleep on the couch before 7pm, somehow migrated to the bedroom somewhere around 8:45pm, slept until 4am, watched the Today show until 6am, fell back to sleep and finally woke up at 10am. Crazy! I'm totally out of balance. I'm pretty sure I need a vacation, but I don't foresee that happening anytime soon.

My life is good. I have very little to complain about. There is slight turmoil in my professional life, but I'll get this worked out soon enough. I wish I could be where I want to be right now, but I realize that it's going to take time for that to happen and in reality, I'll probably never reach that magical point. A life well-lived is one where you've focused on the journey, not the destination. I have to be patient and keep working towards my prize. Exactly what that prize is, I haven't totally figured out yet, but I'll know it when I get there :) Maybe the journey is the prize. I have to keep learning and growing and moving forward forever. Learning should stop at death and not a moment sooner!




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