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My heart in a knot
2011-06-18 19:02:08 (UTC)

Changes..

So right now I'm feeling very down and distraught. I am still feeling the pain from regret of not getting to know Kay when I had the chance, I'm also dealing with Ericksons stage of development "intimacy vs. isolation" .. on top of that I'm still living with my parents, however today my sister told me that she was moving out soon, apparently she is going to the army or something like that, she has been saying this for a while now but I won't believe it until she's gone.


Although me and my sister don't really get along well, I know I can't stay here living with my parents by myself, it would just drive me crazy.. so this is what I have to do... find a another place to live... which means.. goodbye free rent, plus I have to find a place that is dog friendly and within my price range.. On top of that I will still have school. Deep down I feel like I can do it. Having my dog might add to the challenge of finding a reasonable place but I have to take her.

Not only will I no longer be able to live rent free I will also be on an extremely tight budget. Rent will eat up nearly my entire pay, what I have left will go towards gas and my car, then I have to eat too, that is maybe $1000 a month. -.- Another thing is that I really hate the city I live in, there is a high rate of crimes and break-ins.. I would hate to have to deal with that.. so I might have to possibly consider another city, which might mean I have to get another job. Speaking of which, I will need to be able to maintain my job to pay rent.


I'm excited at the thought of my own place, however right now I am dealing with school work and a job that I don't fit in at and the only reason I had to work there is now gone.


Right now I'm going to go work on this paper, if I get a reasonable amount done then I would like to come write some more because I feel so stressed right now.




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