Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
I'll Have To Think On It...
Work felt like it simply wouldn't end! I got engrossed in a PINK panty bar recovery project that felt like it went on forever. But, the satisfaction of finishing was worth it :) Damn me and my strong work ethic!
The rest of the day was pretty usual. I got to spend a good portion of it with my Snookums. He got off work early, so after hitting the gym and dropping Keenan off at therapy, we went on a Starbucks date together :) It was nice sitting in a relatively quiet place and being able to just talk to him (without a child needing something or pulling on me, wanting to be picked up). I love our family, but it can get crazy sometimes and I worry that we'll lose our connection if we don't have that one-on-one time. Somehow me manage to find the time when we need to, but more would be nice.
I've got another huge decision to make... because of the amount of weight I've lost, it's left me with a lot of extra skin. My trainer told me that there isn't any workout that can make it go away, so surgery is the only option if I want to really see any change. I'm torn. I HATE the way I look naked. I look deformed and it's really sad to have put in all that work and then look at myself and feel almost disgusted. I look great in clothes, but I know what's going on underneath. Of course Snookums doesn't care, but he knows how much it bothers me. He found out that our insurance DOES cover reconstructive surgery after a large amount of weight loss. I just need to schedule a consult with my primary care physician and they'll make the decision whether or not to refer me to a plastic surgeon. But, do I really want to do that? It's drastic. I'll have to think on it some more...
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