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My Life Thus Far
2011-04-27 05:42:34 (UTC)

Miracles of Nature

Nothing of exceptional interest occurred in my day. It wasn't bad by any means, just average. Although compared to what life used to be like for me (pain, misery, suffering, depression, addiction, despair, etc.) I'll take average! My average is another person's awesome :)

I actually managed to get out of the house on time this morning! I got in a great workout for a change (Keenan's therapy days are always short workouts). I did 30 minutes of lifting (only arms, because some dude was hogging the Smith machine) and then 30 minutes of cardio divided up between the Arc Trainer and StairMaster. I was dripping, soaked by the time I was done! Which is a sign of a good workout. I love exercise so much. I can't believe there was a time in my life when I avoided it!

I'm starting to find it hard to believe I was ever obese or addicted to food as a comfort. Times have changed and my focus has shifted to more worthwhile pursuits. Sometimes I wish I could "fix" the dysfunctional individuals I come in contact with. The ones that are currently suffering the same self-hatred that I imposed upon myself. But I can't. Not unless they truly want to be helped and in that case, I'm not nearly qualified enough to be their help. It's a miracle I "fixed" myself. Still not sure how I managed to do what a therapist, a counselor, a psychologist, a psychiatrist and a host of antidepressants, anti-psychotics and "mood enhancers" couldn't. I'm not religious, but I do believe in miracles of nature and I am one :)

While Keenan was at therapy today, I stopped in Starbucks (as usual) and got my skinny caramel macchiato. Out of the blue, as I was sitting at a little table sipping my coffee - spacing out, I decided that I'd use my 30 minutes of free time (before I had to pick Keenan up) to walk around Goodwill. They opened up a brand new on in Silverdale at least a year ago and I've never been in it. I was thinking maybe I could see if there was anything worth salvaging (some timeless vintage clothes, books, home furnishings or something). I've decided that since my teen years I've become a bit of a snob. We're not rich by any means, but we're comfortable and I can afford to buy anything I want new. I looked through the clothes and various odds and ends and didn't see anything I just had to have. There were three things I considered buying; silicone bakeware (which can be expensive, but this set was kind of sticky and weird shapes I wouldn't ever use), an old-fashioned bathroom scale (but then I remembered that I have no place to put it in my bathroom and it might make me obsessive about weighting myself, which I've broken myself of doing) and a Nordic Track treadmill. I'm still considering the treadmill. It was $99.99, which is way less than a new one goes for. Especially a Nordic Track. The only reason I didn't get it was because I wasn't sure how well it works. It wasn't plugged in, so I couldn't try it out. Maybe I'll call tomorrow and if it's still there I'll reconsider. Having a treadmill in the living room would be awesome!

Snookums and I watched a movie together today. Something we hardly ever do. Easy A. It's kind of a teen movie, but it was still funny. I liked the dynamic of the family. I know it's a movie and should not be compared to real life, but I hope when my kids are teenagers, we still have as good of a relationship as we do now. A mother can dream.

My goal is to get to sleep before midnight tonight. It's after 11pm now, so I'd better get on that. I want to get up refreshed tomorrow so I can bring it at the gym in the morning! I need a little soreness in my life ;)




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