Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2011-04-26 05:21:10 (UTC)

I Could Have Made It Better

I kind of feel like today didn't go as well as I would have liked. It wasn't a bad day, but I could have made it better (had I had even the slightest desire to try).

I didn't go to the gym this morning. I didn't feel like rushing to get Kiki's cupcakes decorated, Kiki on the bus, Keenan into the car, only to get to the gym and have 30 minutes to work out before I had to rush to Kiki's school. I decided to go in the afternoon when I had more time.

Kiki's party wasn't a party at all. Turns out her teacher was absent today and didn't let the substitute teacher know we were coming. So, instead of having cupcakes during snack-time in her class, we had to pass them out in the cafeteria during lunch. Which sucked because I only made enough for Kiki's class, not the entire kindergarten student body of Kitsap Lake. Other kids wanted cupcakes, too and I couldn't give them one. I hate that feeling :( I would have made 100 cupcakes over telling a 5 year old kid "no".

After the fiasco at Kiki's school, Snookums, Keenan and I came home. Keenan went down for a nap, I was getting ready to go to the gym. Snookums wasn't doing anything. So, I asked him to take a few minutes to put the training wheels on Kiki's new bike. When I came home from the gym, no training wheels. I asked him why he didn't put them on and his answer was he couldn't find the adjustable wrench. So, I open the tool drawer in the kitchen and right there next to the hammer was the adjustable wrench. I was highly irritated. I do everything when it comes to holidays and birthdays. I buy all the presents, do all the wrapping, baking, party arranging. EVERYTHING. I rarely ask him to do anything. All I asked was that he screw on some wheels and he couldn't even do that! I love him, but he finds new and creative ways of being lazy sometimes. It doesn't help that he's hobbling around with a cane now. I hate that I harbor resentment against him at times, but I do. As I'm pulling myself and my life together, he's just aging before his time. I look at him and I see an old man. It's almost like he doesn't care about anything anymore. Sad :( I hope he comes out of whatever funk he's in.

This evening I didn't feel like walking Tanner and I definitely didn't feel like running with him. Tanner is like an extension of Snookums and I was still upset with him (not just over the training wheels, it goes deeper than that. I just don't feel like talking about it right now. That's a whole 'nother entry). Instead, I decided to lock myself in the bathroom and take a long, hot lavender epsom salt bath. I turned on my favorite contemporary radio station, soaked and sang until all my stress was gone :) I adore my family, but sometimes they stress me out. My husband is a lazy old man, my daughters are at each other's throats 75% of the time and my son is one of the most demanding people on the planet... but I love them all :)




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