Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
My Personal Satisfaction
Michelle, I accidentally deleted your message (I totally thought I was clicking reply, oops!), but I agree with you on all points! I think some people are always looking for the "easy" way to weight loss. When in actuality, just doing the basic stuff everyone knows works IS the easy way! Consistency and a little self-control is pretty much the "magic pill" when it comes to being fit and healthy. Sometimes I wish thumping people on the head was socially acceptable!
Today has been a bittersweet day. It was actually a great day for me, but my baby is pretty sick, so that taints my happiness a little. We took him to the doctor this afternoon. He's got a double ear infection. They're not sure what type of infection it is, but based on the type of drainage he's got and the smell associated with it (nasty), the doctor thinks it's a particularly resistant strain of bacteria. We'll know more when the cultures come back from the lab. We came home with a grocery bag of different medications. I think the pain meds are starting to kick in, because by dinnertime he was a much more amicable child. Compared to the screaming tantrums he had been throwing most of the day. I hope this translates into a full night's sleep for all of us. He hasn't been sleeping well lately and I think this monster of an ear infection is the culprit.
I decided this morning I wanted to dress kind of nice today. Not extravagant, but somewhat pulled together. So, I packed my gym bag with a lovely black blouse I hardly ever wear, dark skinny jeans and some black peep toe pumps. I had a great workout, showered and put on my somewhat fancy outfit. When I went to Childwatch to pick up Keenan, one of the ladies there said "You look so good! You've lost so much weight, I can't believe how hard you've worked!" It was a really lovely compliment and it stuck with me all day. Then later, Snookums said to me "Your ass is on point". That would be Ebonics for "I like the way your butt looks in those jeans" :) I don't do what I do for the compliments. My personal satisfaction is enough, but it's still nice. I'm not gonna lie.
When we got home from Keenan's appointment, we gave him his first doses of meds and put him down for his nap. The urge struck me to go for a run. I was feeling a little stressed, to be perfectly honest. Sometimes I like to run around my development. It's 3 miles all the way around and I do it twice. The first time I did it, it took me over an hour and I thought I was going to throw up and/or die. Today I did it in just under 50 minutes, barely broke a sweat and wasn't out of breath. I can't believe how much progress I've made! I used to hate running, now it's a welcome release. I wouldn't trade my fitness for anything in the world. I love the new and improved me. There is just one issue I've got...
Tonight while I was in the shower, I looked down at my body and felt almost a touch of panic. I look and feel so different from what I used to. You'd think that would be a good thing, since I used to be overweight (I pretty much have been overweight my entire adult life). Instead of feeling super-awesome, sometimes it makes me uneasy. I'm still not totally comfortable with being... thin. My fat was my protection for a long time. I don't need that protection now, but the fear that I'm losing something valuable is still lingering in the back of my head. Crazy, huh? I'll get over it, I'm sure.
This stupid sore throat is still hanging on. It's not so bad during the day, but in the morning and at night, it's screaming! I wonder what it is? I'm not worried about it, though. Otherwise I feel fabulous. Who could ask for anything more?
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