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My heart in a knot
2011-03-11 22:16:46 (UTC)

Anyone but me.

So yesterday night I got hooked on this web series called "Anyone but me", it's on youtube you can find it there to watch. Its basically a inclusive show that details a lesbian relationship between two high school girls who move apart.. I thought it was a really sweet show, they only have 2 seasons out and apparently are working on season 3 now.

While watching it I got hooked on the character "Vivian" who reminds me of how I think kay is. She actually has the same kind of smile as kay, and looks a little bit like her.. but kay has light brown hair and light brown eyes and is a bit paler.. other then that they are about the same. But it was her personality and the way she talks that reminded me of kay, I thought about her the entire time while watching that show..It really made me want to try to speak to her, but today I was looking at some photos of me and began to think maybe me and her won't make a good couple.. just because I have a few flaws..

Kay is very cute... she put up a new photo on her facebook page today.. it is her with really short hair and washed out.. I notice in a lot of her photos someone is really abusing the flash function. I bet I could take very beautiful photos of her.. that detail her eyes.. when I first saw them I thought they were green, I actually think her eyes change color.

I have not spoken to sean since the other day when he was supposed to meet me somewhere but didn't but then lied and said he was there... I really just don't know who he is. I looked at a photo of him not long ago and he just seemed like someone I didn't know.. in fact I think I'm forgetting about him fairly quickly and that kinda bothers me because I've been experiencing some neurological problems that seem to be affecting my memory and other functions.. for instance lately I have been reading numbers backwards..like when a number is 82 I will read 28. It's usually always backwards.. It's never like I see 82 and I read 59... so that tells me that something in my brain is jumbled or out of order.. I want to get some omega3 supplements at the store since I think it might have to do with lack of certain vitamins.

Tomorrow will be a sunny day.. I think lack of sun has been affecting me, seasonal affect disorder.. I think that's what it's called.. well it won't be long until spring is in full affect. I can't wait to take summer classes... I plan on taking ethics..


Honestly my issues with my head are starting to worry me.. I hope things will get better with some sleep and vitamins.. I really want to keep my mind sharp, and if I don't give it what it needs then I'll never know what the problem is.


In fact I think I'll go to bed on time tonight instead of staying up until I can't fight sleep anymore. Tomorrow I am getting up at 8 to be at work on time.. I might possibly see kay tomorrow.. if not then then maybe on sunday, either way I want to try to make it a good day.




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