rainy

My heart in a knot
2011-03-01 00:00:08 (UTC)

new me (again)

I've decided to create a "new me" again. All my last new me projects failed because I just ended up returning back to the old me. In fact I don't know how long this new "new me" project is going to last...


Basically I'm going for "sex appeal", I was on campus today and I felt invisible, it seems like every time I go there no one notices me and I get no attention. Plus I saw a girl today with really bright red hair, her hair was originally black so it was dyed.. and I just noticed how much she stood out, not to mention that she was also pretty.

As a short stature person I know I need to do more to stand out and be noticed. I think I have the wardrobe but for some reason I still dress kinda crappy.. I can be such a tom boy at times. But most of the time I'm just lazy and I put no real thought into it. Just blue jeans and a shirt. My hair is always in a pony tail. I think it's cute and fits me but I want to try something different just to see if it works..


Tomorrow I might see kay.. it's possible and maybe I can make up for that horrible night last night : ( that really was a bad night, I hit an all time low. I was up until 3am crying. I feel like I'm more broken today then I was 2 days ago.

well I'm about to head to bed, tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of the day I started working at my current job, I still don't really like it there but being able to see kay makes it worth it.




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