rainy

My heart in a knot
2010-03-19 19:42:15 (UTC)

: (

So today at work was not a good day and I got sick. I wish I could be
writing something right now a lot more happy and upbeat but I really don't
have it in me, first off they switched my work schedule so instead of going
in the afternoon I had to do mornings which was hard because I have to
get up so early plus I have been having very little sleep lately.

Another thing was that it seems like a lot of people I work with are starting
to see that I'm a bit anti-social. So it's kinda like they were curious about
me at first and who I am but now it's dwindling away you know, like a
candle stick.

The only good news I can report on is that Sean wrote me back! And
although he did not ask me out or anything he did say that I was a strong
person and a bunch of other things and I'd have to agree although I feel
like complete crap nearly all of the time I have been able to survive this
long without completly losing it.

Right now here the weather is getting warmer and I'm starting to wonder
how I can hide the scars on my arm. I always hate this... It was never a
problem until people started to notice them starting with Sean.

My head just hurts right now and my mind is all messed up. My stomach
hurts too... : ( I just feel aweful but I want to be better.




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