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2010-03-05 12:05:53 (UTC)

As soon as forever is through, i'll be over you.

It's been a short week, the days have gone pretty fast, I
guess that's what happens when you spend the week in bed.
I think it's been a week since we last spoke, i'm so lost.
I spent this morning realising that I have, that I am
nothing without you. I find myself breaking down every day
lately. I thought about calling you around 3am, what would
I even have to say? That I miss and love you? What's the
point anymore, you clearly don't feel that way about me, I
wonder if you ever did.

Why am I so hung up on you? I guess I saw this coming, I
always knew it would take me years to get over someone
like you. Why I even got involved seems so confusing to me
now. I don't even know what to do. I'm so run down that I
just, I have nothing, the only way I know how to spend my
day is in bed crying myself to sleep. Will I still feel
this way after a year? I've already shed so many tears,
why must I go through this much heartache?

It's my friends 30th today, I think. I don't really know
what i'll be doing, or if i'll even be going. I managed to
get a few hours of sleep after waking up this morning, and
seeing as all i've done all week is sleep, I should be
fine for work. I guess I don't really want people asking
me if i'm okay or seeing my wrist. I kinda don't want to
leave the house, I just want to be alone until this stops
hurting so much.

I just wanna get your fucking voice out of my head.