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My heart in a knot
2010-01-26 22:59:48 (UTC)

Depression

I got real depressed today.. I think it was because I put
too much oil in the noodles I was cooking this morning, but
that's just a speculation since I've been trying to draw a
line between the foods I eat and how they affect my mood.

My day started out at the library, it was pretty full and I
was upset to see so many people there since I usually feel
that everyone has such wonderful lives but me, I couldn't
imagine spending anytime at a library if I had people in my
life to talk to... but that's just a thought.

I saw a guy who I sort of knew, he was in one of my classes
a few semesters ago, he said hi.. and I just felt so lost
with my words, I just wish I could get myself together.

After the library I went to campus to catch up on my reading
for class..


and then UGH.... I just started to get sooo DEPRESSED!!
there were these girls having fun and I started to get so
upset since I know how bad I want to have a close group of
friends but it's so out of reach for me, I just feel so
dumb, to make matters worst I could not follow along to what
the instructor was talking about, and this lady was talking
to me about mushroom sandwiches and I didn't know what to
say, I just FML, uggghhhhh I have the worst life on earth,
hands down, I'd be willing to bet ANYONE on that!




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