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My Life Thus Far
2010-01-22 06:36:39 (UTC)

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At this point in my life, I'm so very comfortable. I don't
want for anything, I don't feel like there's something I'm
missing or longing for. I'm very content. There was a time
when I wasn't sure that would ever happen. That I'd be
content in my place or station of life, but I think I'm
there. Of course, there are still things I wish to
accomplish and would like to see happen, but I'm on track
to achieve those things. Right now I'm very pleased to
live my life, day-to-day, for what it is. For what I've
made it to be. I love, love, LOVE my family and home life.
My job is entertaining (and now in balance as far as how
much time I spend there) and I'm healthy. Finally! REALLY
healthy and feeling 100% great! This gluten-free shit is
THE BOMB! :) I just wanted to say that...

I'm doing very, very well (emotionally, mentally,
physically, you name it). A stark contrast to what my
world was like when I started this diary. I was so very
broken then. I feel sorry for the former me just reading
some of those past entries. I have a lot of people to
thank for my recovery: My amazing, loving, supportive,
patient husband Jason. Snookums :) He's always been and
still is my best friend. Someone I could always count on
to be there to support me. My dad, who was probably most
instrumental in helping me realize who I really am. He has
given me valuable tools that I continue to use and develop
daily. I'm much more stable and balanced because of him.
He didn't try to change me, but he gave me what I needed
to change myself. Thank you, dad... If you ever read
this... Thank you to the people that read and comment
regularly. You guys know who you are :) Your feedback,
opinions, suggestions and praise are invaluable as well.
So, this entry is dedicated to those who have helped me
become the person I am today. I'm awesome because you're
all awesome :)

Today was great. I have not one complaint. I've been
sleeping very well lately. No problems with insomnia or
getting to sleep (or staying asleep). I'm averaging about
7-8 hours every night. Perfect. I woke up, got myself and
the kids ready. Dropped Annie off at school and hit the
gym. I have to say, I'm still very much in love with
working out. Nothing makes me feel as good as getting all
sweaty :) I convinced my manager, Tamara to get a Y
membership. It's obvious she hasn't been feeling very
happy with herself lately and I know how much it helped
me. So, she did it. I saw here there this morning. We
didn't work out together, she's just starting out and I'm
a little more advanced than she is, but I stopped by to
say hi and to see how she's doing. I hope it helps her as
much as it's helped me.

I had an on-call tonight, but they didn't need me. I can't
say I wasn't a little glad. I didn't feel like working
tonight. I have an on-call tomorrow night, too. I'll be
fine if they use me, but I really do love being home.
Snookie came home right when Kiki and Keenan went down for
their naps, so Snookie and I crawled into our comfy bed
and took a nap, too :) It was lovely. I got up and started
dinner. Tonight, I introduced something new to the family,
polenta. I've had it both soft and solid, fried in olive
oil. I love it, but I've never given it to the family.
It's an excellent alternative to pasta, rice or potatoes.
The kids LOVED it, especially Keenan. Snookums is a little
more set in his ways. He hasn't decided if he likes it or
not, but he said I can make it for him again, so I
consider that progress. I made it soft tonight. Maybe next
time we'll have it fried. We just had roasted chicken and
asparagus with it. It was a great, simple meal.

Meals have taken on a whole new importance in my life now.
I've got a great relationship with food. It is possible to
eat well and be thin! No more deprivation for me, I've
found a happy medium! Now that Keenan is limited in what
he can eat, I've been trying to find new and different
things to introduce into our diets. I'm starting to love
cooking and sitting down to family meals is quickly
becoming one of my favorite things. We sit at the table
every night (that I'm not working) and have dinner
together. We have a chance to talk and catch up. It's
wonderful.

Snookums is badgering me to come to bed, so off to bed I
go. Those burgundy sheets are calling my name :) Ciao.




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