Truthful

Finding my flow
2010-01-07 15:41:46 (UTC)

Breaking my own vows

As always, I am again breaking my vows of not writing diary
in the lab.
Now, I am in lab waiting for an experiment to
happen and what else to do.....
Ron (my advisor) has send me a paper to read, which I will complete reading tonight itself.
Before next NIOSH meeting, I should be ready atleast with
the spread sheet.
weekend will be a working day for me.
I hope this experiment, which I am running currently goes
well.
I am hopeful after a long time.
Yesterday, I was looking at the some of my pictures from
early days in America. I was looking cute, simple,
enthusiastic and thin.
Nowadays, facing mirror makes me panic.:-(
I am positive that this dullness/lifelessness on my
face/body/mind will go away but worried too at the same
time.
I will be going out for dinner at Alibaba in few minutes.
I have to pay for both me and Ash, as per we have decided.
I am planning to go to ikea this weekend.
I have to do the grocery again. Last time, when I went to
patel brothers I got guava, they were awesome!
Mini has bought the car but I doubt if she paid the entire
amount from her pocket. May be his BF and Mausi have made a
contribution.
Or may be she has taken the loan.
why do I care???
I want Honey to make money for himself. I want him to do a
better job. If he wanted to an MBA that is also fine.
I hope there will be no extra money pressure on the family.
I have to not only sustain myself but also support my
family.
I need to earn money!
Sab ho jayega I wish....
Today, I met my psychiatrist also and said all positive
things. I did not feel like complaining.
nyways, I have written enough for today.
I will get back tomorrow.
bye.
Its today only, sitting in the lab frustrated with the
experiments, thinking of happy moments in past and chatting
with Jha. He is on phone right now so I am waiting for him
to get back to me, meanwhile I thought let me write down some more thoughts in the diary.
what else can be done with this experiment??? hmmm...let me
think...





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