rainy

My heart in a knot
2009-09-04 15:32:08 (UTC)

working... that's about it

So I've been working almost everyday.. about 30 something
hours a week.. I really hope it pays off, I am trying to buy
a ipod touch for my little cousin who is turning 13 in
October. Plus my car needs to be looked at, other then that
I'm just saving up for next semester (which is going to be
expensive) and food of course.


I feel upset that I haven't met anyone around my area to
befriend.. the other day a guy approached me, we exchanged
numbers but I haven't spoken to him or seen him again yet.
He thinks I'm cute.. lol ... well I don't know how it's
going to work out or if it will. I really would like to
learn how to better communicate with other women since that
is a very big problem for me, I even notice that at work how
I open up better to the guys then I do women.. it may have a
lot to do with my birth mother....

So on my birthday I went to the beach... it was a beautiful
day outside and I took some really nice pictures.. lol I was
a bit lonely though.. well enough about that...

I have been talking to iris again.. I guess getting to know
a little more about her. too bad I just feel lost and
hopeless in that situation.. but I guess something is better
then nothing.

I'm really going to start working on reaching out more...
and lol I know I've said that before yet here I am in the
same spot.. but I really want to find someone to connect
with, someone I can be free and open with like I am in this
diary. But it just seems so hard....


well.. until next time...





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