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2009-08-22 15:38:22 (UTC)

True love waits.

This morning I was going to ring you after work, you were at some guys house party, I don't get you sometimes. This guy apparently wants to be in a relationship with you, but as you looked for him when you were leaving someone told you he was with some girl and didn't want to be disturbed.

You say you have no feelings for him and therefore couldn't care less what he does, then why were you so hurt? You were like this with your ex when you broke up with him, to be with me. As soon as he started to move on you were like, really hurt by it or something? Like you expected him to be... Well, like me, depressed and heartbroken for years before getting over you. The fact that they both didn't wait around long hurts you or something.

I'm kinda glad I didn't ring you and instead just talk to you over text, although I'm pretty sure hearing your voice would of been so good for me right now. At least we talked about how I feel and how you don't want me to feel. I just hope I don't read too into it, and get all these thoughts and feelings about how we're going to be together, because I'm pretty sure the next time we talk will be just like this morning never happened. You're good at pretending you don't know how I feel.

You always have guys after you, you're so beautiful, so smart, when you talk I'm amazed. Why am I so fixated on the motion of your lips spelling out "I love you"? The way your mouth moves and the way your eyes follow mine. I'm so in love with you.

I went for so long and I was so wrong, then I met you. Now I can't live without you and I don't want to, I've done that all my life up to now.