rainy

My heart in a knot
2009-07-18 00:33:11 (UTC)

dare I even say..

So it's been a while... or at least I feel it has..

This time I can actually say I have met some new people : )
and I am actually kind of excited about that since it seems
as if I finally have "people" in my life... now keep in mind
I haven't met any of these people IN PERSON yet.. but I'm
working on it.. so now anxiety is starting to set in since I
know that I am meeting new people but I still lack
conversation skills, I haven't started my new "therapy
videos" yet.. which are basically going to be me doing
vloggs (video blogs) of me talking about things.. I find
that it helps me talk more freely.. um... or something like
that.


The only reason I hadn't started was cause I had broke out
which can't really be explained since I thought the new
stuff I have been using was working well... anyway, they are
clearing up pretty well so I won't feel so self conscious on
camera hopefully.

I have plans on meeting a girl next week, of course I don't
know if it will happen, I don't even know how this
happened.. but for some reason she has been presistant about
it so I just agreed to eventually meet her.. I don't even
want to go into details though... not until it's over at
least, then I can say... well I already feel like I've
messed things up and it hasn't even happened yet!! lol, well
at least I haven't given up yet.


Oh and I still don't have a job.. which is why I spend on
average 8-12 hours a DAY online... I do take breaks of
course. yea I even have a counter thing built into my
browser that tells me how long I've been online so I can
keep track. lol


Well it's been raining and the sound makes me sleepy, plus I
might actually be doing something tomorrow .. LOL

later..




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