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My Life Thus Far
2009-06-04 08:26:39 (UTC)

Jonesin' For Some Cheerios

I'm feeling a little better right now, but all day I've
been on a roller coaster of unstable emotions. This cold
refuses to go away and this afternoon I had cramps so
strong a horse would have keeled over from the intensity,
but right now I'm doing better.

Much like yesterday, I had to drag myself out of bed this
morning and force myself to go to the gym. My mind was all
for it, but my body wasn't as enthused. 25 minutes into my
workout I had to stop to change my tampon (heavy flows
seem to be here to stay). I HATE interruptions to my
workout, but what choice do I have in that situation?
After I got off the Arc Trainer I had to go change it
again before my mile run around the track. Which I
couldn't even finish because the cramps nearly had me
doubled over, but me being ever-tenacious I still walked
the last three laps around the track because I refused to
give up. I don't think I've ever been quite as proud of
myself for finishing a workout like I was today (and it
wasn't even one of my better performances). I stuck with
it when most people would have a) not gone at all or b)
given up when the going got seriously tough. I question
why I'm so motivated when there isn't much need for me to
be. I can't help it.

I had an on-call tonight, but they didn't use it, so I had
the evening off. I love working, but tonight I really
didn't want to go in. I just wanted to be home (where I
could be a bitch openly and honestly). I got the house
cleaned up, tackled my vacuum cleaner (literally. It had
an airway obstruction and I tore the damn thing apart
looking for it so the stupid little light would go off...
it was popcorn). Once that was done, Keenan and I sat
outside and enjoyed the lovely weather and I grilled the
kids up some cheeseburgers.

My neighbor got herself a good sitter. She's young, but
the past couple of evenings she's sat and I think she's
doing a good job. Annie and Kiki spent most of the
afternoon next door with her, playing with my neighbors
sons. I was grateful for the break and actually got to
read a little. It gave me some time to adjust my attitude.
Keenan sat in his highchair, watching people walk by and
birds fly around as he stuffed Cheese Nips into his mouth.
He's such a good baby...

I got to talk to my Snookums for a good while tonight. I
like that they're in port because when the ship is out at
sea our phone calls are few and far between. He's not
calling as often (because I don't have time for that), but
he's been working around my schedule and calling when I've
actually got time to talk to him. No one can make me feel
as good as he can. When we got off the phone tonight my
mood was exponentially better. So far, all things are
going as scheduled and I should be seeing him in 26
days :) I really can't wait.

I'm kind of jonesin' for some Cheerios. It's well past
9pm, but I'm feeling hungry (it's been 5 hours since
dinner). It wouldn't take much to justify eating the bowl
of Cheerios right now, but I want to be good. Damn I hate
being so determined... Ciao.




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