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My Life Thus Far
2009-05-17 06:33:11 (UTC)

Into Myself

I missed Snookums a lot today :( I think because it was
such a warm, sunny day. It reminded me of last Summer when
Snookums was home and we spent most of our days together
as a family. Grilling, doing things outside. I miss those
days. Just 1 month, 29 days to go and I can have those
days back...

I had errands to run this morning. Amy worked two nights
for free this week in exchange for her Girl Scout uniform,
so I had to pick that up for her. There's a little
children's boutique in Silverdale that carries Girl Scout
paraphernalia, so I got everything I needed there. Annie
needed a flag patch and an insignia tab, so I got those
too while I was there (I'm really so proud of Annie for
taking this seriously. She's such a devoted Girl Scout).

After that I stopped in Target so Annie could pick out her
party invitations. She wants to have a sleepover for her
birthday. Originally it was a skate party, but I guess I'm
okay with a sleepover instead. 12 girls laughing,
giggling, tearing apart my house... fun. Thank goodness
birthdays only come once a year. I think I'll keep it
simple. Order them pizza, do the cake and ice cream thing,
buy them some tween-appropriate movies (Twilight, of
course. Annie is pining for that movie like you wouldn't
believe). I'll let them have the living room and I'll do
my best to keep Kiki away. Not easy, but if I let her hang
out in my bedroom with me she should be happy. She has a
hard time sleeping when Annie isn't going to bed with her,
so I don't think she'll be going to bed on time. Keenan is
usually asleep by 7:30pm, he'll sleep through most of it.
If you couldn't tell, I'm already dreading May 22nd.

Since it was such a lovely day I took the kids to
Evergreen Park for a break between errands. Right as we
got there the ice cream truck came by, so they had some
ice cream, played a little (well, Kiki played). Annie sat
with Keenan and I in the grass and worked on her
invitations. She's so excited :)

As I was pulling out of the park, Snookums called :) The
email system on the ship has been down since Tuesday, so I
haven't gotten any emails from him. Of course I miss my
daily emails, but he's been making an effort to call every
other day to make up for it. Hearing his voice always puts
a smile on my face. I'm holding things together very well
I think, but it saddens me that I've got a life separate
from the life we have together.

The Commissary had a case lot sale this weekend. I usually
only go grocery shopping on Monday's, but I had to take
advantage of it. I stocked up on the things we use the
most of: toilet paper, paper towels and juice boxes :) I
also got a pack of 4 bacon-wrapped Filet Mignon's because
that's what Annie wanted for dinner tonight (there was no
way I was eating that, but I didn't mind making it for
them). With the weather being so warm and luscious I
wanted to be outside and it was a great excuse for firing
up the grill.

As badly as I wanted to get out of Washington State, as I
was sitting on my front porch, looking out at the beauty
around me (the green grass, the newly leaved trees,
Ostrich Bay) I came to the conclusion that it's not so bad
here. Life really is what you make of it and I think
Snookums and I have carved out a lovely little life for
ourselves and our children. If we do end up getting
stationed here for another tour, I'll be okay with that.
So much bad has happened to me here in Washington, but on
the other hand, so many really wonderful things have
happened, too. I met my amazing husband. All of my
children were born here. I've grown into myself and am
starting to know who I am. I've shed my painful past and
am stepping into the hard-earned happiness that I've
worked on finding for the better part of a decade. This
place isn't so bad, after all. Ciao.




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