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My Life Thus Far
2009-05-02 06:11:02 (UTC)

In Every Way, I Feel Better

Last night I made the mistake of laying down on the couch
when I should have just carried my kiester to bed! I ended
up falling asleep sometime around 11:30pm. I didn't wake
up until after 6am, to the sun rising over the water. It
was beautiful and lovely to see, but it completely threw
off my morning. I was still in my work clothes, so I got
up, put on some sweats and laid back down on the couch.
There was no point going to bed. The kids were going to be
up soon, so I just watched the news until Kiki came
upstairs and asked for breakfast around 7:30am.

I had to drag myself off the couch to go to the gym. I
just felt so lazy and warm (warm is a feeling I've been
yearning for. I've been so cold lately). Some days I don't
feel like going, but I have to remind myself that it's in
my best interest to hit the gym and I really do want to
go. I've never regretted a single workout. I ALWAYS feel
better. Mentally, physically, in every way, I feel better.
It's truly my anti-depressant. I don't know if I'd be able
to function without it. Especially not with all the
stressors raising three kids, working and taking care of a
household on my own can create. Sometimes when I take
stock of what I'm juggling, it seems daunting. But I know
I can handle it. Burning off tension at the gym is
essential, though. I can't let momentary lazy-itis throw
me off track.

I don't know if it was what I was wearing or if maybe my
weight loss is just not starting to become noticeable, but
it seemed like everywhere I went today people commented on
how I look. I stopped in Starbucks before work to get a
shaken black tea and one of me and Gen's regular baristas
commented on how slim I'm looking. She asked me what I've
been doing and how much I've lost (25 pounds since
Snookums left) and encouraged me to keep up the good work.
That was nice :) Then at work both Alicia and Tiffany said
my efforts are really starting to show. During my break I
went to Baskin Robbin's to get my usual (a diet Pepsi and
a scoop of Raspberry Cheese Louise fro yo) and one of the
guys that works there said that I'm shrinking!

It's nice having my hard work and diligence noticed, but
I'm really doing it for me first and foremost and then
Snookums. Let's be honest, sex is way better when you're
in shape. At least for Snookums and I it is. I can feel
the difference in my body, I can see the difference and I
have not a single pair of pants left that fit right (other
than the skin-tight yoga pants I work out in). It's
motivating me to keep up my efforts. My goal is 140 (I'm
169 right now), but if I get to 145-150 I'll be happy with
that. Hell, 160 wouldn't be the end of the world, but for
my height I think 140 is perfect. Ciao.




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