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My Life Thus Far
2009-04-20 07:34:19 (UTC)

Happy Thoughts

I had a lot of time to think today. Not about anything in
particular - just about how fortunate I am. How great life
is. Happy thoughts :) It's rare that I get a day at home
when I don't have a million things to catch up on. The
house is clean, the laundry is caught up, I didn't have
anywhere to go, anything to do. It was lovely.

As I figured we would, T'onna and I sat up talking until
almost 2am. We always lose track of time, mainly because
we have so much in common and can commiserate on so many
levels. I've always steered clear of Navy wives in the
past. Mainly because of experiences I had as a child.
Seeing how some of them acted and listening to my mother
bad-mouthing them left and right. I've decided that there
is no better way to understand people than to get to know
them. Now that I'm a Navy wife (and have been one for over
5 years), I understand better how difficult it is and how
easy it is to go astray (not just in the marital sense,
but in a lot of different ways). Accepting the fact that I
was starting to act like one of "those wives" that people
talk about was a sobering realization and lead me to
change how I see my fellow wives.

Last month I bought the book Married To The Military and
one of the chapters discusses getting to know your fellow
wives and joining the clubs. It also cautioned against
being too condescending and stand-offish (which I was VERY
guilty of in the past), because the very women you're
turning your nose up to today may be the one's you need
help from tomorrow. I'm still not into the whole club
idea, but I am more open to getting to know other wives.
Being isolated during deployments was a fatal mistake I
made in the past. Having friends really does help. Having
friends that are going through what I'm going through is
even better.

When I got up this morning Snookums had sent me 16
emails :) Mainly just "I love you's" and ecards, but it
was still so sweet seeing my inbox flooded like that. One
of them was a forwarded email from the Ship Surgeon,
confirming the lab results from his specimen (to check his
sperm count). In the doctor's words "Your specimen is all
clear. You may rely on the vasectomy as your only means of
birth control". I'm so grateful to Snookie for doing that.
A lot of men wouldn't even consider it, but he suggested
it. I love my children, but I know myself and my body. I'm
100% sure I don't want any more kids. I don't know if I
could physically or emotionally handle being pregnant
again. Maybe I'll have my tubes tied just to be 200% sure
it won't ever happen again! I'm really looking forward to
the freedom and spontaneity of not having to think about
birth control anymore.

This PMS is kicking my butt. I'm kind of bloated and my
back is killing me. I was thinking about trying some Midol
or Pamparin, but I hate taking pills. I have to force-feed
myself vitamins only because I know it's for my own good.
I'll buy it and then not take it. Thankfully I don't get
periods very often, so I'll just suck it up and deal with
it the 4 or 5 times a year I have one. I wish Snookums was
here to rub my back (like he does so well) and feel sorry
for me :( On a happy note, I get to go to the post office
tomorrow and pick up a package Snookie sent me! They tried
to deliver it on Saturday, but I was taking Annie to Girl
Scouts. For some reason I have to pay customs fees on it.
I don't know why, that's just what the notice on the door
said, but I'm sure it's worth it! Ciao.




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