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My Life Thus Far
2009-04-16 07:02:46 (UTC)

Pretty Much Unbearable

I'm in such a bad mood. Nothing happened. Under normal
circumstances, I'd call today a good day. I just feel so
cranky! Part of me wants to scream at somebody. Another
part wants to cry. My whole body is sore, I'm tired,
testy. If it's not PMS I don't know what is. Thank
goodness I don't get periods very often, because this is
pretty much unbearable. I love being a woman. I love being
able to have children. I love dressing nice, wearing make-
up, smelling good. I love pretty much everything there is
about being a woman... except menstruation. Especially now
that I'm done having kids. I wish there were something I
could do to stop my period all together that wasn't as
drastic as a hysterectomy (which no doctor will do on a
perfectly healthy 26 year old). I don't want to take birth
control pills and even then I'd still get a period.
There's no good way to make it go away forever. I suppose
I'll just have to deal.

I stayed up until a little before 5am this morning. I
won't be doing that tonight, but a positive side effect of
staying up so late was that I finished all the laundry.
They finished laying the new gas lines yesterday
afternoon, so there was no bulldozer this morning. All
that needs to be done now is asphalt and landscaping,
which I think they'll do after they finish the next block
over. Since it was quiet, I got to sleep all the way until
8am. Instead of getting vibrated awake at 6am. I know I
shouldn't stay up so late, but I can't help it. Sometimes
trying to sleep when I'm not ready is more frustrating
than anything. At least when I lay down at 4am I don't
struggle to fall asleep.

My day was business as usual. Nothing extraordinary to
share. Kids, gym, work. Tomorrow I'll wake up and do it
all again. I'm okay with that. I feel content with the
path life is taking right now. I can't complain. Ciao.




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