Truthful

Finding my flow
2009-03-14 18:09:36 (UTC)

I am a bad person

I think everybody around me is a good person and I am the
worse.
I don't feel the enthusiasm towards my work which is so
depressing.
I deserve to be kicked out, so i shall not adapt any easy
way out.
Let Department decide my fate.

I lost my Id, I need to search for it. I am sure it will be
somewhere at home only.
Keep the Faith!
I talked to many people on phone today so that good....
why am I so obsessed with talking to people. I should
develop some faith within myself.

It's high time, i need to live life altogether again.
Develop interests, hobbies, aims, ambitions, desires.....

I will do some experiments tomorrow and will be fine till
the start of the week.

I need to come out of this 'good' and 'bad' stuff!
Person bad for me may be good for someone else.
My sub-conscious mind is very mean, jealous and greedy.
Why am I not a ambitious person?
shall I start walking to main campus? may be in 5 more
minutes.
Well, yes another thing, Bushra di was saying I could not
handle the success, I think I am not able to handle the
independence.....its overwhelming for me.
I could not successfully able to motivate myself to work in
constrains-less environment.
I have started analyzing my flaws of phd so that means I
have no hope left.like also said previously, life
happens.....




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