Interrupted

My Life Thus Far
2009-03-02 07:36:07 (UTC)

Pulling Down On E's

I was in a pretty rotten mood for the better part of the
day. I can't tell you why (because I don't know). I woke
up unsettled and that feeling stayed with me for most of
the day. I'm trying hard to be more centered, level-headed
and rational, but every once in awhile I end up
emotionally off kilter and have a day like today.

They say money can't buy happiness and it's the truth.
Even with the extra $1,200 of unexpected money in
Snookums' paycheck it didn't really improve my mood any. I
did all the shopping I wanted to do and dragging myself
out to shop some more (in an attempt to improve my mood)
wouldn't have helped any. In fact, it probably would have
been a bad idea. Confrontational was at the top of my
negative emotions list today. It was like all the bad
feelings I've been working on repelling ganged up on me
and sucker punched me in the stomach. Weird.

Thankfully, now I'm feeling better. I had a meeting at
work tonight, which I wasn't looking forward to. I didn't
feel like putting on real clothes, doing my hair putting
on any make-up or even driving. I just wanted to veg at
home. But, I dragged myself up and did it. The meeting was
fun. Not so much because of the content (it was the usual
stuff. Engage, show, provide, preparing for the next
launch, reviewing bra-fitting techniques and teaching
newer associates about breast types {there are 4 basic
breast shapes} and what bras work for what shapes). It was
fun because now that the holidays are over, we're back to
our core staff. The few that have been together for years
and a few newer (but not that new) associates that have
proven themselves. We're all comfortable together and even
though we're all adults and look at women's breasts on a
daily basis, we still giggle when we watch the educational
videos and make jokes about ourselves (in case you were
wondering I'm a type 3 thanks to breastfeeding, motherhood
and gravity pulling down on E's).

As I was driving home, I did notice that I felt better. I
guess I just needed to get away. I haven't gotten out
without the kids in a long time. I can't remember the
date, but it is going on a month. Yes, technically going
to work is getting out without the kids, but it's not the
same. When you're at work you can't be silly and laugh.
You have to be professional, helpful and busy. While I
love my job, it isn't the same as going out with friends.
Meetings are less work, more socializing. I needed to
socialize.

I'm running late tonight, but not as late as I was last
night. I didn't fall asleep until almost 5am and I know
that must have played a huge role in why I was such a
bitch today. It's almost 11:30pm, but the house is done
and there's nothing left for me to do, but grab my book
and crawl into bed. Tomorrow I've already decided I'm
going on a quest for a gym. I've done some online research
and I'm ready to find my place. So ready. Ciao.




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