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My Life Thus Far
2009-03-01 07:01:46 (UTC)

Talent Scouts and Modeling Agents

I think I might start writing in the morning, because by
the time I get the kids to bed and the house picked up I'm
too exhausted to write the way I'd like to. Since I bailed
on last night's entry, I'm going to woman up and make it
through this one! Really, morning might work better for
me. At least until I get this fatigue issue under control.

Yesterday I had coffee with Gen and we took the kids to
play at Periscope Place. Then I did some shopping. That
was Friday in a nutshell.

I've been very conservative in my shopping endeavours
lately, but yesterday and today I went a little crazy.
Only, instead of buying a bunch of stuff for myself, I
bought for the kids. Kiki at Gymboree and Target, Keenan
at Target and The Children's Place, Annie at Gap. I did
buy myself a few luxuries (vegan body products - a new
organic PINK line we're carrying at work) and some bras
and panties. No more than $200 total. However, I've spent
about $800 on the kids over the past two days. I feel a
little bad about it, but my kids deserve it, so I don't
feel THAT bad about it.

Today I decided to do something special with the kids. We
stay home a lot, so after Annie was done with the second
part of her Highly Capable testing I took the kids to the
Tacoma Mall to go to the Build-A-Bear Workshop. Let me
tell you, that place is no joke. 3 bears (with outfits)
set me back over $100. I'm glad that place is a 40 minute
drive away! But it was fun and the kids had a great time.
Keenan freaked out a little every time the stuffing
machine started, but he loved his bear :) I dressed his in
a little sailor outfit just like daddy's (Summer dress
whites. The uniform everyone associates with the Navy).

On our way through the mall, back to the car I got stopped
by a very well-dressed gay guy (are there any other kind
of gay guys)? He asked me if I'd ever heard of Mara
Santino. No, I hadn't (but of course I googled her as soon
as I got home). She's a talent scout for Luber Roklin
Entertainment (they supposedly cast kids for television,
movies, commercials and print models, but I didn't see
anything to substantiate that claim). He handed me a card
and an invitation to a casting call tomorrow at 1pm. My
first reaction was "hell no", but when he said that they
cast for the Twilight movies, Drake & Josh and iCarly he
got Annie all worked up and now she's driving me insane. I
absolutely don't want to go. Not because it's in Federal
Way and I don't feel like driving all that way for a 30
minute interview that could amount to a big pile of
nothing. But more so for the potential problems that could
arise if she's what they're looking for. I don't want to
do it. My mom side is totally against it. The "what would
I have wanted if I were a kid and this was me" side says,
let her do it if it's what she wants. What's the harm?
Well, there's a lot of harm if you ask me. My mother was a
child model and had nothing but horror stories (and ended
up with some really warped views when it came to body
image and appearance). Annie already has an astronomically
high level of self-esteem. Getting picked out of the crowd
by talent scouts and modeling agents doesn't help any.

Celebrities usually work very hard to become famous and
few became famous just by being found on the street (or in
a mall). It's kind of a once in a lifetime thing and this
is the 3rd time in Annie's life that it's happened. Am I
wrong for not wanting to let her go? I don't feel like I
am. I told her I'd think about it tonight and give her an
answer in the morning. At this point my answer hasn't
changed... no. But "maybe" was enough to get her to go to
bed. I want nothing but success for her. No matter what it
is she decides to do, but at 9 years old it's my job to
protect her and I'm not sure if this is really in her best
interest. She's never been one of those kids that say "I'm
going to be famous one day"! So, I don't really feel like
I'm stifling a dream or anything. If she wants to be a
celebrity someday, let it be when she's old enough (and
mature enough) to make the decision.

The house looks like a bomb went off. There's shopping
bags, Build-A-Bear boxes and tags scattered all over the
place. I'm too tired tonight. There's always tomorrow...
Ciao.




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