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My Life Thus Far
2009-02-21 06:59:17 (UTC)

Finally, The Voices Have Shut Up!

It was a good day - a good week, in fact. Aside from
feeling a little worn out, I'm in a very positive frame of
mind and overall, I feel great. Thankfully, I can say with
confidence that this isn't a fleeting sense of well-being.
I'm being proactive in my quest for happiness. I've
instituted a no-TV policy in my bedroom. I haven't turned
it on at all this week. Not since I got my new book. I
used to turn the TV on because I couldn't sleep without
the noise. I needed it to drown out my thoughts. Turns
out, if I put good thoughts into my mind before bed, I
don't need to drown anything out. Peace at last. Finally,
the voices have shut up!

Gen and I had coffee today (that's 451, Gen. You know what
I'm talking about). I've always loved our coffee/chat
tradition, but lately I've been appreciating it even more.
I think it's because I know they aren't going to last
forever. Neither of us is going to be here much longer and
while I know that won't put an end to our friendship, it
will put an end to our spontaneous Starbucks meetings. At
least I'll have the memories :)

I mailed another package to Snookums today. I love making
care packages for him. He's always so thankful for what I
send, which makes me feel good. I try to put a lot of
thought into them. This one was mainly cookies. Girl Scout
cookies, actually. Annie isn't old enough to sell door-to-
door yet (they aren't allowed until 11), so I tried to
make up for it by buying a lot from her. I'm not
comfortable asking friends and family to buy stuff from
her. I don't want them to feel obligated, so I just do it
myself. I also put some Country Time Lemonade mix in there
with them, so he can have tea parties in his bunk :) Also
the new Robert B. Parker novel, too. That's the only
author he'll read. I have to thank my dad for that one.
Before dad introduced him to Robert B. Parker the only
thing Snookums would read was the Navigator (the Navy
newspaper).

I did a little shopping, too. By a little I do mean a
little. I've lost some weight and a lot of my clothes
aren't fitting well anymore. I spent a total of $50 on
three new tops for myself and a couple little outfits for
Keenan (who is having the opposite problem. He's getting
too big for his clothes). I'm trying to sever my ties to
materialism. Bit by bit of course. I'll never totally be
able to give up nice clothes and keeping a nice house, but
I can be more conservative (the Dalai Lama told me I
should do this). I got a real-life cautionary tale about
this today. One of the wives on Snookums ship called me
this morning, practically in tears because her husband
spent all of their income tax return and a good portion of
his paycheck while the ship was in port. He bought a
camcorder, an iphone and a laptop. I've never been into
electronics. I'm perfectly content with my 4 year old
computer and my free cell phone. I don't need anything
fancy. We've had the same furniture for the past 5 years,
the same televisions. I'm okay with that. Snookums hasn't
complained about it, either. So I think he's fine with it,
too. I like not having a lot of stuff. Clutter makes me
uneasy, anyway.

Around 4pm I started feeling even more exhausted than I
normally do. I wasn't sure how I'd make it until the kids'
bedtime, but I did. Of course now I've gotten my second
wind and I could stay up half the night. But I'm not going
to. I'm going to crawl into bed with my book and read
myself into a state of peace and tranquility... I'm such a
dork :) Ciao.




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