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My Life Thus Far
2009-02-15 08:58:10 (UTC)

A Little Inimical

It's not that I'm bitter about being alone on Valentine's
Day. It's not that I dislike the holiday. I'm just kind of
ambivalent towards it. Snookums hasn't been home on
Valentine's Day for 3 out of the 4 years he's been on the
Stennis. He always sends me something (this time he left
it behind for me. A teddy bear and a really sweet card),
but it's not the same as having him here. So, I just don't
give the day much thought. I was fine all day, until
tonight when my neighbors started blasting love songs. I
try to uphold the Buddhist principles I hold so dear, but
it's hard to be tolerant of them when it's obvious they
have no regard for anyone else. I've got a headache and
listening to the thump, thump, thumping of their stereo
system is not therapeutic. I hope nasty neighbors move
into the unit next to them and call base police. I'm too
polite to do it myself. I know, I'm being spiteful, but my
head hurts and I'm allowed to be a little grumpy.

Instead of sitting around the house, the kids and I
actually got out of the house. One of the Stennis wives I
befriended last year invited us out to dinner at Azteca's
since we were both Valentine-less. Between the two of us,
we have 5 children and let me tell you, that was an
adventure. Usually my kids are very well behaved in
restaurants, but when they get around other rambunctious
kids, they're wild side comes out, too. My friend's son
was all over the place, so Kiki was all over the place and
Annie was running behind them trying to keep them
wrangled. I was so glad to get out of there. It was a
little embarrassing.

After dinner we took the kids to the mall to play at
Periscope Place, but it was so crowded the kids didn't
really enjoy it, so we walked around a bit. I really take
for granted how well-behaved my kids usually are, because
tonight was an adventure (to say the least). Jaden was
running in circles, Kiki was trying to be good, but the
temptation was too strong and Annie was getting frustrated
with both of them. By the time we left the mall I was
exhausted.

I pissed Tamara (my manager) off. I know I did, but I
don't care. Yesterday I went in to by Amy (my babysitter)
a Valentine's Day gift (a PINK t-shirt and a $25 gift
card) and while I was there Tamara asked me if I would
work her shift for her today so she could have Valentine's
Day off. I'd already made plans with Kisha and just
because my husband is gone doesn't mean that I'm obligated
to give up my social life in favor of Tamara's. Her
husband never goes anywhere, he's always home. They could
have celebrated after her shift tonight. As Kisha and I
walked past VS, Tamara saw me and kind of gave me the
stink-eye. Her way of seeking revenge on those that cross
her is to cut their hours on the next schedule, so we'll
see just how badly I pissed her off. I don't care one way
or the other. Maybe I could have taken her shift for her,
but Amy had plans and I probably wouldn't have been able
to get her to sit for me anyway. I feel no guilt.

I'm going to bed now. I'm feeling a little inimical. It's
just because I'm not feeling well, so I think I'll try to
get some rest. There's nothing more disheartening than
going to bed with a headache and then waking up with one.
I'm really hoping the tests I had done yesterday give me
some answers... Ciao.




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