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My Life Thus Far
2009-01-30 09:04:28 (UTC)

Something Magnificent

I wasn't in a very good mood today. I know why. I haven't
heard from Snookums since Sunday and that made me grumpy.
I didn't know if I wasn't hearing from him because he was
busy, because he was sick or if the ship's entire
communication system was down (that happens occasionally.
Not by accident, they do it on purpose. Like you can make
an entire aircraft carrier with it's own zip code
invisible by stopping the transmission of phone calls and
email... Whatever). Snookums didn't tell me he wouldn't be
able to contact me for the indefinite future. I heard it
from all the other Stennis wives I know who's husbands
called them and told them that they wouldn't be able to
make contact until the ship reached Hong Kong (which they
won't tell us when that will happen). I was all worried
for nothing. Everybody knew except for me. Which made me
feel a little like a moron for being so out of the loop.

The past couple nights I've been getting those headaches,
so I forwent writing for my bed. I've never had more
headaches in my life than I've had since Keenan was born
and it puzzles me. I don't feel that stressed out. In
fact, I feel pretty mellow compared to other times in my
life. I'm drinking enough water, taking my vitamin,
getting plenty of sleep. Maybe I'm not eating enough, but
I've had eating disorders (taking in 600 calories or less
on some days) that didn't induce headaches. So, I don't
know. In fact, I can feel one coming on right now...

I'm restless and bored. Sitting around the house usually
doesn't bother me, in fact it's one of my favorite
pastimes. I love being at home with the kids, but today I
felt like a penned animal. I'm tired of housework, tired
of all my hobbies (writing, reading, painting,
crocheting), I'm not much into television (especially
daytime TV). So, I'm most definitely getting out of the
house tomorrow. How did I stay in the house for damn near
3 months after Kiki was born? I can't do it now. I'm going
shopping tomorrow :) A friend of mine, T'onna has invited
me out on Saturday and I think mama needs a new outfit.

Kiki and Keenan melted my heart today :) Keenan was
sitting in his swing. He'd just woken up from a nap and
was starting to make his little hungry noises. I got up
from sitting on the couch with Kiki and went into the
kitchen to make his lunch. He's just starting to
experience separation anxiety, so when I walked out of
sight he started crying. Kiki was nursing a sippy cup of
water when I left the living room. It struck me as odd
that Keenan all of a sudden just stopped crying. Binkie
doesn't work when he's hungry. So, I poked my head around
the corner to see what was going on. Kiki was standing
over Keenan. She looked up at me and said "Mama, Keenan
likes it!" She'd popped her sippy cup into his mouth and
he was happily sucking down the water. He's never had
water before. He's never used a sippy cup before. He
looked up at me with his daddy's big blue eyes and the
look on his face honestly looked like one of shock and
awe. Like the universe had just opened up for him and he
was experiencing something magnificent. Kiki stood there
holding that sippy cup for a good 5 minutes. It was the
cutest thing. That helped me kick my bad mood real quick :)

I let the girls stay up late tonight (10pm, very late for
them) to help me crochet blankets for Kiki's stuffed
animals (they got to roll balls of yarn). My crochet
attention span is very short, so little square foot-sized
blankets are right up my alley. They enjoyed staying
up "late" and I enjoyed their company. It was nice :) One
of these days I have to crochet a sleeping bag for Annie's
teddy bear Granola. I'll have to add that to the top of my
crocheting backlog list... Ciao.




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