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My Life Thus Far
2009-01-23 01:01:12 (UTC)

171 Days To Go

I woke up in a pretty blah kind of mood. I'm not sure what
exactly was wrong. Maybe it was residual feelings left
over from last night or maybe the realization of Snookums'
absence is starting to kick in (not that it hadn't
already, but more intensely). Who knows. Maybe I'm due for
a down day. Nobody can be happy all the time.

I had to force myself out of bed. Nothing would have made
me happier than to just spend the day in pajamas, lounging
around the house, maybe even spending the day in bed. It
sounds inviting, but I know it's not really what I want to
do. If I don't get up, get dressed and find something to
do, I inevitable end up feeling like a freaking slug by
the end of the day. I'm upset with myself for wasting a
day of life on being lazy. So, I pulled myself up, dragged
my happy ass into the bathroom and I got dressed. I had no
choice anyway. I had to go to Annie's school. Her lunch
account was low and I didn't know if she had enough for
lunch today. Leave it up to one or all of my children to
make mommy do what's right :) What would I do without
them? If I didn't have my babies, I really wouldn't have
any reason to get out of bed. Nobody would be asking me
for food at 8am :)

My Snookums always seems to come to my rescue when I need
him most. Without being in the same geographical area, he
was able to defuse my funky mood. It was coincidence,
really. I happened to be walking by the computer just as
my email notifier chimed. Snookums doesn't usually send
email during the day. Generally I get emails from him late
in the evening, so I was surprised to see a message from
him! I sent him one right back and we ended up playing
email tag for almost 30 minutes! Phone calls are out
(unless he's in port) and the ship doesn't allow instant
messengers of any kind or web cams, so it's the closest we
can get to real-time communication when he's out in open
waters.

This deployment feels vastly different from the last. Not
one of the little 2-3 month cruises, but the 6 month
deployment back in 2007. Emotionally I'm on a much more
even keel (pardon the nautical pun). I still miss Snookums
very much, but I don't feel abandoned, isolated or scared.
We've got at least 171 days to go (which is subject to
possible extension if they end up "engaging the enemy"
{highly unlikely. Knock on wood}, but I hope not) and that
fact doesn't escape me, I'm just handling it better.
Snookums has been much better about sending emails. It's
our main form of communication and I really look forward
to getting them.

I'm tired. I've been staying up too late the past few
nights. I was doing better about getting more sleep, but I
fell off that wagon somehow. I need to get back on it. The
days go by much slower when I'm tired. Ciao.




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