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My Life Thus Far
2009-01-02 05:29:49 (UTC)

WestPac Resolutions

The holidays are officially over (at least in our
household). Christmas and New Years have come and gone,
Snookums' leave is up and tomorrow he goes back to work.
I'm relieved to finally be done with it. Maybe one day
I'll embrace the joys of the season and not just for my
children and the people around me, but for my own reasons.
Let's face it, it's just easier to say "Merry Christmas"
then it is for me to explain in-depth why I don't like
Christmas. Maybe that could be my resolution. "Learn to be
less of a Scrooge"! I've got a year to work on that. Right.

Speaking of resolutions, I've been asked a few times if I
have any this year. The answer is no. I don't believe in
resolutions (just add them to the long list of stuff I
don't believe in). I think because they go against my
natural way of setting and reaching goals. The idea of
attaining long-term goals is a good one, but if you don't
really want to reach them or have no intention of sticking
with the processes necessary to reach them, what's the
point? It's a waste of time and energy. I have a more
spasmodic method for setting and meeting goals: When I
realize there's something I want to accomplish, I
immediate start taking steps to meet the challenge. No
waiting for a new year to start, no dilly-dallying, no
pro/con lists. If I see it, I must achieve it. I just do
it. Like Nike says JUST DO IT.

Instead of new years resolutions I've got WestPac
resolutions - things I want to actively work on while
Snookums is on cruise and I have a lot of long evenings to
introspect (since I won't be working on strengthening my
marriage for a little while). Nothing ground-breaking.
Just the same old stuff I'm always striving towards: The
ever-illusive self-realization, contentment, physical and
mental health, financial stability and better parenting
methods. There's so many ways to improve yourself as a
person. No one is done growing and learning no matter
their age. At 26 I feel like I haven't even begun to
scratch the dust off the surface of what my personal
potential holds. I want to do so much and the only thing
stopping me is my mental immaturity. By immaturity I don't
mean daydreaming about the Jonas brothers and worrying
about pimples, I mean on a much grander scale. Like this
whole humans only using 10% of their brain capacity crap.
If anybody can tap into that idle 90%, it's me :) I
believe it. I'm capable of being smarter, more productive,
wiser, more ingenuitive, you name it. My potential is
limitless and that goes WAY beyond a simple resolution.
When I reach my grave, I want to leave an indelible mark
on this planet. I'm just not sure how I'm going to go
about that... Ciao.




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