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My Life Thus Far
Just As I Am
It's about 5,000 times easier losing weight when Snookums
is gone than when he's home. He's lost a good amount of
weight since he left (about 25 pounds) and I lost 31
pounds while he was gone, but when we're together (and
subsequently happy) it's hard to put the brakes on. I'm
trying to be his conscience and my own, but he's fighting
me all the way. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I'm
determined to change his relationship with food (not
because I'm tyring to change him for my own ends, but
because he asked me to help him). Already I've broken
myself of the vicious habit of emotional eating while I'm
alone. Now it's time to learn that lessen when Snookums is
home. It's not that I'm scared of gaining a couple pounds.
I'm not that vain. I'm just so tired of constantly
fluctuating. Up and down in weight as the ship comes and
goes. I've always been thick. I'll never be 100 pounds. I
don't want to be 100 pounds. I think it looks sickly. I'm
content and while I would like to hone my physical body a
little better, ultimately I'm happy just as I am. That
happiness has been created by balance. Balance in all
things and that includes food. Healthy relationships with
all aspects of life is what breeds happiness. This is what
I've learned.
Snookums went back to work yesterday, but came home before
9am. Today was his second day back at work and he didn't
get home until almost 3pm. Not late, but the time felt
like it was dragging by. I couldn't keep myself
entertained to save my life. I played with my hair (rolled
it in hot rollers to see how it would turn out). Cute was
the verdict. Snookums loved it. How much I'd rather not
say :) I did some Algebra worksheets (I have to work on
strengthening my math skills because it won't be long
before Annie surpasses my ability and I won't be able to
help her anymore). I printed out a few crossword puzzles
(then the printer cartridge ran out of ink and I can't
remember where I put the replacements. I've over-organized
to the point where I can't find anything)! Kiki is getting
over a little bug and slept most of the day. Keenan still
sleeps most of his day away and Snookums did all the
laundry yesterday. By the time Snookums got home I was
bored out of my mind. I think Snookums should be allowed
to stay home until the ship leaves in January :) Wishful
thinking I know... Ciao!
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