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My Life Thus Far
2008-10-29 06:38:48 (UTC)

Far From Flawless

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I couldn't be any happier right now! I've had a great day,
I've gotten nothing but good news and to top it off, the
day is done and it's too late for something bad to rain on
my parade.

I had another great night's sleep last night, which I
think is the catalyst behind my happier mood and better
days. Nothing makes life more dreary than trudging through
it in a sleep-deprived fog. My dad gave me a book on
meditation years ago (which I didn't give much thought to
and promptly shoved on the book shelf). Now, every night
before I go to bed I've been reading a little of it. It's
called Meditation For Wimps and I highly recommend it.
It's helping me to shut off my thoughts and relax myself
into a deeper sleep. I think too much sometimes. I guess
it's better than not thinking at all, which too many
people on this planet are guilty of!

Annie's parent/teacher conference was today. I have to
admit, I was a little nervous about it. Up until this
point I've never had a positive conference. Annie's in the
4th grade and they've always been Annie-bashing sessions.
Not today. Mr. Tebo is a fabulous teacher and I'm so glad
she was assigned to his class. He started out the meeting
by highlighting Annie's weaknesses. She likes to be right
all the time, she's too social, she can't sit still, she's
a little on the bossy side, yada-yada-yada. I know all
that. But, instead of dwelling on those points and pissing
me off, he surprised me by saying "she's a delight to have
in class". I was shocked. I've NEVER had one of Annie's
teachers say that. They're always trying to get her out of
the class. Sending her to the principal's office or out
into the hall. He said the funniest thing. "Once I
accepted that Annie learns best standing up, things have
progressed nicely from there." I thought that was
hilarious. Mr. Tebo thinks that as long as teachers can be
tolerant of Annie's unique needs, there will come a day
when she realizes that nobody else is standing up and
maybe she'll learn to conform a little. I don't want her
to conform totally, because heaven knows I haven't, but
even I learned to go along with the flock when it's in my
best interest.

Because of Mr. Tebo's progressive thinking Annie has
thrived. Her test scores are PHENOMENAL! She's always been
smart (they put her in Mr. Tebo's 4th/5th grade split
class because of it), but she's really taken off. Annie is
currently reading/writing and doing math at a 7th grade
level! At 9 years old! I couldn't be more proud of her.
Mr. Tebo's exact words where "she's truly gifted"
quote:unquote. I can't take much credit for it other than
my exemplary genes and my own love for reading and
writing :) People say Annie and I are beautiful, but I
value my intelligence far more than my looks. My ultimate
goal is to teach Annie to do the same.

Work was great. I was floating on a cloud when I got
there. I'd just left the parent/teacher conference and I
had nothing but good energy going on. I channelled that
into what I was doing and my evening was great because of
that. I got another really nice comment. I'd just helped a
lady select some bras for her teenage daughter and as I
was ringing her up, she asked me "have you ever had a
pimple in your life? Your skin is flawless!" Then she
turned to her daughter and said "look at her forehead!
It's perfectly smooth!" I think it has something to do
with the lighting in Victoria's Secret, because whenever I
look in a mirror at work, it looks like I was airbrushed
or something. When I'm looking in the mirror at home, I
can see little bumps, blackheads and freckles on my skin.
I'm far from flawless. I hate wearing makeup. Nothing goes
on my skin other than a little moisturizer (I do like my
eye make-up, but no foundation. Ever). Maybe that's the
ticket. Stay away from make-up and your skin will be
flawless :) As much as I dislike my mother for all her
craziness, I have to admit the woman is beautiful and if I
can look half as good as she does when I'm her age, I'll
be happy. But, it's not that important.

Hopefully all of my self-confidence and high spirits
doesn't translate into conceit. I'm far from perfect, but
perfectly happy with who I am none-the-less. Now it's time
for bed. Ciao :)




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