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My Life Thus Far
Paste On A Smile
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I'm tired. It's after 1am and I haven't stayed up this
late the past couple of nights. After I'm done writing,
it's off to bed I go!
I got a call from Kim (my baby sitter's aunt, whom she
lives with) this morning. She called to apologize for
grounding Amy, which I thought was nice, but not
necessary. I'm a mother. I understand. If it had been one
of my children I would have done the same thing. She
offered to watch the kids free of charge this week, which
I thought was incredibly generous and since I had no other
option I took her up on it. The downside is that I have to
take the kids to her house (because she's got 7 kids in
her care), but that's better than having to call out for 3
shifts in a row. So, I'll take it. Annie and Kiki had a
great time and from what I heard Keenan did, too. He spent
his evening getting passed from one teenage girl to
another. Every man's dream, I'm sure. Too bad he won't
remember it when he's older!
Work was great. I had such a good night, it makes that
crazy period of time between 4pm and 5pm worth it. It's
always within that hour that I hate getting ready for
work, I hate getting the kids situated for the sitter, I
hate driving there. But, as soon as I put my purse in my
locker and clock in, all of that melts away and I'm in the
zone. Working at Victoria's Secret is like acting. Even if
I'm not particularly happy, I still paste on a smile and
act happy. Even if I feel frumpy or tired or chubby that
day, it goes away after I spend 30 minutes getting myself
pulled together. I'm good at what I do, which gives me
confidence and I help other woman, which feels great.
There's nothing better than making someone look in the
mirror and smile. I couldn't give a crap about the
lingerie, but I love the bras and bra-fitting.
As I was walking out of the office this evening, on my way
to clock in, I caught a glimpse of my ass in the fitting
room mirrors. All I can say is, I'm a very happy woman :)
I look good! I hadn't paid much attention to the change in
my body, but today when I put on a pair of pants I haven't
worn since before I got pregnant with Keenan (and they fit
well), I figured that there must be some sort of change in
my body. I've lost 21 pounds so far. I love my body at all
sizes (it's a healthy body has served me well so far), but
I like being in shape better. Who doesn't? Now that I'm
done having babies, it's nice knowing I won't have to lose
weight again. Once I've gotten down to my desired weight,
I'll have no reason to gain it back.
To congratulate myself on getting back into shape so
quickly, I bought myself an angora blend tank and knicker
set. I deserve it and I haven't bought myself anything
from work in a long time. I did compromise. I got it in
blue because that's Snookums favorite color :) We got a
gratis tonight, too. The new Bio-fit Lace. I tried it on
and it's okay. I'm still too big for our cup sizes, but if
I've just fed Keenan it fits okay.
Snookums called me tonight and I missed his call :( I
turned off my phone at work, because Tamara was on the
office phone and I didn't want it to ring and disturb her.
I forgot to turn it back on when I got off and when I
finally did remember, it was 10:30pm and Snookums had
called at 10:13pm! Sad. I hope he calls tomorrow. He's
been really busy this underway period and can't e-mail
very often. I appreciate it even more when I hear from him
because of that.
I need sleep. My eyes are starting to hurt. Ciao
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