Interrupted
My Life Thus Far
My Big Girl Panties Are On
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All day I dwelled on Friday night (what happened with the
wives). I don't usually let things get to me like that, so
that was bothering me, too. Being ditched and then feeling
stupid for feeling bad about it still. I mean, it's not
that big a deal and it's not the end of the world. So they
don't want to be my friend. It's not like I haven't come
across a dozen people in my life that have said their my
friend, then flaked out on me. I'm sure it will happen
again, so I might as well put on my big girl panties and
just GET OVER IT! So, I am. My big girl panties are on :)
I had a meeting tonight at work. I love going to work, but
I can't always say as much for meetings. Because I've been
there for years, meetings always cover information I've
gone over a million times before. It's gotten to the point
where I'm not even allowed to answer questions because I
know all the answers! But tonight was different. It was
much more laid back and relaxed. We played games and
chatted. Everybody brought food and we spent the majority
of the time getting to know one another (because so many
new people have been on-boarded for holiday). I brought
Keenan with me (so I wouldn't have to use any of my
precious frozen milk) and he spent the evening getting
passed around from one baby-hungry 20-something to
another. He was such a good boy, though. He didn't make
any noise and didn't seem to mind getting passed from
person to person. I'm going to have to give him another
bath, though. I'm sure he's covered in germs :)
I didn't deny myself any of the food at the meeting. At
first I thought I should because I'm trying to lose
weight, but after giving it some thought, I didn't think
it was the best idea. I don't want to live my life
sacrificing everything simply to be thin. What kind of
life would that be? So, limited my intake. Portion
control. Thankfully, the lasagna Barbara brought had meat
in it, so the highest calorie offering there was off
limits for me. When I got home, I tallied up what I ate in
my food journal and surprisingly enough I didn't go over
my calorie limit. In fact, I'm at the low end of it. 1512.
I also worked out for an hour on my Gazelle, so I'm in
good shape.
I feel really happy right now :) Every now and then I
consider quitting Victoria's Secret. I love being with the
kids and I hate leaving them, but once I'm there I
remember what I love about my job. And in that moment, I'm
always glad I didn't quit. I opened up my availability to
include Wednesday's now. I'll probably open it back up to
Monday-Friday when Snookums leaves on deployment, just so
I'll have full days and the time will fly. As it is now, I
spend most of my evenings rotting my brain away on this
computer. Even if I'm not scheduled all 5 days, at least
I'll be getting time away from the kids (which I think in
the long run makes you a better parent. If you have time
away) and adding a little variety to my life. As it is
now, it's pretty predictable. Which I'm not always so fond
of.
Keenan is calling me. I think I'll give him that bath
before his last feeding and night-night time. Ciao.
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