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My Life Thus Far
2008-10-17 08:00:09 (UTC)

Sabotaged By Her Good Intentions

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I'm very sure (now more than ever) that the military
really doesn't care about spouses. They say they do, but
I'm not convinced. First they take your loved one away,
then they make life difficult while they're gone. I had to
have a baby alone, raise children alone and on top of that
deal with their ass backwards regulations that don't take
into account that we can't always depend on our enlisted
spouse to do things for us when they're on the other side
of the freaking planet!

All I wanted was a temporary pass. I wasn't trying to get
permanent decals (to get on base). I only wanted something
to get the Toyota on base until Snookums gets home so I
could go grocery shopping and take Keenan to his doctor's
appointment. Is that so much to ask? I didn't think so. I
went into Pass and ID with all of my paperwork, but
instead of getting my pass, I got the run-around instead.
They wouldn't do it because the Toyota isn't in Snookums'
name. No shit, he's not here to register it yet! So, I
tried explaining my situation, but it fell upon deaf ears.
They gave me a two day pass to go to Navy Legal to see if
they could work something out, but no. That wasn't
happening. There's nothing they can do. I can't even
describe how mad I was. The pizza guy can get on base no
problem, but I can't get my vehicle on base? I've lived on
base and I know how easy it is to get things delivered.
But, when a dependant wants to get a new vehicle on base,
there's all these regulations that don't take into account
that the active duty party can't always be home to handle
things. I'm not going to dwell on it. I've got the Impala
and it's got decals, so it's not like I'm totally out in
the cold.

Physically, I'm feeling slightly better today. I've taken
two prenatals every day for the past three days and I
think it's helping. Maybe it's a placebo effect. I want
the prenatals to work. I never thought I'd feel better
pregnant than not pregnant. It sucks, because I felt
really crappy when I was pregnant.

I have to start pumping again for the first time since
July. I had so much milk saved up in the freezer, but
since I started back to work I've gone through it all and
I need to start stockpiling again. I've got one day's
worth left. My milk supply has regulated itself to the
point where I've only got about three ounces left after
each feeding. So, it's not as easy as when I had seven or
eight surplus ounces left after Keenan was done. I'm sure
the extra pumping will boost my supply again pretty
quickly. It's a great way to burn some extra fat, too :)

Since Helena left, I've lost three pounds. It's crazy how
that happened. I knew I was being sabotaged by her good
intentions, but I had no idea how much. I'm not doing
anything drastic, either. I'm eating within my 1500-1800
caloric allowance, drinking water and working out on my
Gazelle. I don't really have a goal I'm trying to reach by
the time Snookums gets home. I'm just doing what I need to
do to get and stay healthy. I'm 47 pounds away from my
ultimate goal. The one I set three years ago and somehow
stopped striving for. I'm one little pound away from my
pre-pregnancy weight (which was too heavy). Then it's all
extra weight I regained after falling off the weight-loss
wagon last year and the 10 pounds I never lost (to reach
my ultimate goal). I'm on track and that feels good.

I'm going to bed now. There's no way I'm staying up until
3am tonight. Ciao.




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