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My Life Thus Far
I'm Saying "Screw It"
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I got some really amazing feedback today. I always love it
when people take the time to comment, but sometimes there
are a few comments that really make me feel special. So,
hopefully the reader that left this lovely little
affirmation doesn't mind that I shared it :)
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Hello Jennifer :)
I just had to say that for the past 2 months or so, Ive
been reading your diary and today I finished it and am all
up to date. I have no clue as to why people in the past
have given you bad feedback, there wasnt ever any instant
where I judged you or thought badly of you.
You are a fantastic mother, very organized and obsessive
about cleaning ( just like me I might add) and some of the
things you sometimes dislike about yourself arent bad
things, at least not to me :). The impression I have is
youre a good person with a great family. I laughed and
almost cried reading some of your entries. I dont know
how people can pretend to even know what youre life is
about even after reading your diary, Im not a mother and
would never pass judgement on what seems to me is good
parenting, more than I can say for a lot of people out
there.
But this isnt about what you said, this is to tell you I
think very highly of a person I dont even know, and will
continue to read your diary hoping you continue to write
it as well. Your diary has become a much apreciated hobby
and a great way to pass the time, I read it in two
months , 3 years of your life , so that should in itself
say how interesting I found it and it may also be because
I took to you and saw many things of myself in you. I
started reading it when I started my own diary on this
site, I am so glad I came accross it . It was much like
when you read a book and are rooting for the main
character, hoping nothing bad happens to them, well I
guess thats similar to what I think of you.
Hope all good things come to you and your family, you
deserve to be happy and you are stronger for all that you
have gone through. I admire you and wish you well.
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Wasn't that sweet? Things like that make all the negative
crap people say about (and to) me completely powerless.
I didn't write about yesterday because I had a headache.
Well, I still have a headache, it doesn't seem to want to
let up, but it isn't as bad. I took some Ibuprofen and the
intensity has toned down some. So, I can live with it.
I've been getting headaches a lot lately. Why I'm having
to live with them is beyond me, but what choice do I have?
The only topic of interest yesterday came in the
afternoon. I had to call base police on some teenagers. My
living room window overlooks the water. Down by the water
is an outbuilding. I don't know what it's purpose is for,
but that doesn't matter. The little ones were taking a
nap, so I took advantage of the quiet time by sitting on
the couch reading a magazine. I heard the boisterous
sounds of teenage boys walking down the path and when I
looked out the window I saw one of them pull a can of
spray paint out of his pocket. I watched him walk up to
the building and start painting. So, after a few moments
of debate (should I rat them out or not?) I decided to
call security. Within 10 minutes base police had the boys
lined up and their parents called. Once the boys had been
released into their parents' custody, they came up to take
my statement. The boys ended up with community service and
they have to repaint the building. Turns out they drew a
giant penis on it. I don't want my children seeing that
when they go to the park and I'm sure I'm not the only
parent that feels that way. I made the right decision.
Today was an ordinary day until I left for work. I'd left
my phone in the car and on my way to work I decided to
check my messages. I got a call from Helena saying she'd
be here tomorrow! I wasn't expecting her until next
Tuesday. That's when she said she was coming. She's
driving here from Michigan to bring us a new vehicle (a
2006 Toyota Rav 4. It's a benefit of having wealthy in
laws, although it still feels weird to me - getting such
expensive gifts). Of course my house is in no condition
for my mother-in-law's arrival. So, tonight after working
until 10pm, I'm being forced to clean and do laundry when
all I really want to do is go to sleep. I'm ready to just
throw up my hands and say "screw it". This is my home,
this is how we live, take it or leave it. It's not like I
live in utter filth. I've got three kids and with kids
comes mess. Yeah. I'm saying "screw it". I don't want to
stay up all night. She'll just have to forgive the mess.
UPS delivered the Gazelle while I was at work, which
really surprised me when I got home. This morning I got an
e-mail from Target.com saying there was a delay in
shipping and it might not come in the time frame they gave
me. But at the same time, I got an e-mail confirmation
that it had been shipped. Not even 10 hours later it
showed up. Try figuring that one out. Anyhow, I put it
together (it was pretty simple) and I gave it a try. I was
slightly disappointed at first because it felt too easy,
but when I stepped off and tried to walk, my legs had that
jelly-feel they always have after I get off a piece of
equipment. So, I guess it's doing some good. It's just
really low impact. I need that after my knee injury this
past Summer (it's still bothering me).
Alrighty. I need to be heading off to bed now. Ciao.
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