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My Life Thus Far
2008-08-22 08:54:50 (UTC)

It Always Happens This Way

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I'm so tired. Snookums isn't home to keep me from staying
up half the night, so here I am on the computer at 1:30am.
It doesn't matter. I'll have plenty of time to rest when
I'm dead.

The day was pretty ordinary and quiet until around 4pm.
Then all hell broke lose. Well, not really. That's just
when I had to start rushing. I hate rushing and it seems
like that's what I always end up doing right before I have
to go to work.

Kiki, Keenan and I did the same thing we did yesterday
(lounged in my bed) until the doorbell rang. I saw the
lady walk up to the front door and I knew who she was
(even though I've never seen her before). The CPS lady. I
decided it would be best to just get the whole thing over
with or she wouldn't ever leave me alone. So, when she
rang; I answered. To make a long story short, CPS felt
that there was no evidence of child abuse and dropped the
complaint filed by my bitch of a former neighbor. The lady
that came today is a third party counselor CPS employs to
offer people assistance in different areas (parenting
classes, marital counseling, etc.) and to inform families
of programs they are eligible to participate in (welfare,
basically). She didn't have anything to offer us that the
military doesn't already provide. Aside from the welfare
stuff, but we make way too much for public assistance
anyway. She complimented my beautiful home, looked at our
family pictures, asked me questions about my former
neighbor (none of which I could answer because I didn't
know her), gave me a few papers (which I haven't had a
chance to read yet), and then left. That was it. CPS never
thought I was a bad mother. Allowing your kids to play
outside is not considered abuse. Thank goodness, because
if it was then I'll continue to be an abuser.

By the time Barbara (the CPS lady) left, it was almost
5pm. I had to be to work at 6pm. So, I had to rush. It
never fails. It always happens this way. I made it though.
I showered, dressed, gave the babysitter instructions and
still made it to work with 5 minutes to spare. I perform
well under pressure, but that doesn't mean I enjoy it.

Work wasn't as fun tonight as it usually is. Tiffany was
doing orientation for a small group of new girls and they
kept asking me questions and getting in the way. I have no
patience with new hires. Maybe if they stuck around for
more than a week I would, but I've been forced to train
too many quitters in my two years at VS. I'm jaded now.
That doesn't mean I won't train them when they're
inevitably sent my way, I just won't like doing it as much
as I used to. Once upon a time it was an honor to be asked
to train new girls. Until I had to train a new one each
week only for them to never come back. It gets old. We
didn't get off until after after 10pm. I don't know how
having 4 extra people to help added half an hour to the
amount of time it takes to close, but it did.

Well, I really should be getting off to bed now. I didn't
get much sleep last night. I need to do better tonight.
Ciao.




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