rainy

My heart in a knot
2008-08-12 01:55:30 (UTC)

another talk...

Well I had another talk with sean tonight... it really
didn't go so well.. he got mad because he thought I called
him a lier in front of a customer... I did accuse him of
something and I got upset and was vocal about it but I never
used the word "lie" in front of the customer..


Anyway from there I kept on trying to get on the topic of
the past and what happened... but he really didn't want to
hear it. He kept on changing to topic to work..

Then there was something he said to me... that we were never
together... not like a couple.. I knew that we were never a
couple or dating.. but it was like he was saying what
happened didn't matter like it was all no big deal.. and I
guess to him it was not a big deal because he does it all
the time, but it's different for me. why can't he understand
that.

Even then... if all he wanted was sex why not just say so
from the beginning, there is no need for romance.. just get
straight to the point.

.. so now I feel bad about this.. and I'm going to search
for a new job... it makes me really upset but I know sean
is getting tired of me..

this is so tragic, even though it shouldn't be..


I'm just going to continue to work on me... especially after
what he said tonight... I wish I could explain it to him.. I
wish I could explain it to everyone.

well it's late and I'm tired.. I finally figured out the
whole bandwidth thing.. so now I know how to fix it when my
internet dies... : )

I was going to watch a movie tonight but was able to
connect.. that's why I'm here now...

later.




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